Hey, um, I’m still very new to this app but I need to let out emotions. I’ve been living with a family that I consider to be very toxic but to them, they think they’re doing the right thing when it comes to me. For a while, I used to think like that but as years passed by, I realized how wrong they are. I am very anti-social so I don’t usually come out of my room, I just go out when it’s time to eat. My dad separated from my mom and now she’s a single parent. So at a young age, my family was already fucked up. He would scold my mom and my older sister at random times and at random reasons. So just last year she legally separated from my mom. But my mental health started to deteriorate because I kept bottling my feeling ever since I was a child. I have a baby nephew and I hope he won’t grow to be like me. I have no friends at school and would have acquaintances from time to time. My family would get me to exercise because I was too fat when I don’t feel comfortable when exercising. I cried one time when the exercise was so tiring and they scolded me for crying. How am I not mad at them for doing this to me. I know when people reading this post won’t feel the same shit but I just want to go away from this place I call home. Just 2 years ago I came out of the closet and my mom has expectations of me to be good at everything because she thinks that being gay is taboo to her. I sometimes would scratch my skin until it would be red and blood would come down from it (this is just an exaggeration). I don’t want to live with my dad but my mom is being super intrusive at my privacy. She would come to my room without knocking and that scared me. If I were to do that to her she would be mad but it’s okay to do that to me? She was my best friend back then, but now she’s someone out of my life. So, um, I’m sorry if this post was a bit long to read.