Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

hey guys i hope everyone’s doing well and is safe.

its been a year i’ve been at home so far. i dont really have any issues with school or anything else but through this year i’ve noticed all my friends really being distant to me and dont really feel like talking or interacting with me even though ive reached out several times to initiate something. its been a long year and its been kinda bad because i’ve been adrift from all my friends who all of a sudden don’t have any care to respond to me or read my messages and completely blank me like they never liked me in the first place and were just putting up an act in the first place. I know of all of them video calling each other the whole day and for hours and hours in the night and even meeting up with each other, and no matter how much i try they just dont seem to want to do that w me or include me in anything. Im really struggling, i wait all day by my phone to see if anyone even remembers i existed, but to no avail. i really dont know what to do and im just trapped ig because i cant really make meet friends bc of the current situation but also as much and i’ve done myself screw those guys i still really want to be friends and hang out and have fun like before