Here are some things I wish someone had told me when I was at school: you won’t remember these grades forever, not every friend is forever, your hard work does pay off, it turns out ok I promise.

Yes, I think the same. I think it's necessary to let the children know that all this is temporary, but I also feel that everyone needs to experience that sort of stuff on their own for once :))

Education

Hey y'all. I have something to say. I think I'm bisexual. I find myself checking girls out and get sexually stimulated by them sometimes. But I know for a fact that I'm heteroromantic. Like I can definitely see myself being intimate with another girl and stuff but not holding a real relationship with them- and that makes me feel like a bad person, as if I just want to use these girls for pleasure. I'm totally attracted to guys in every way though. I definitely prefer guys. I could never say any of this to anyone because I come from a family that has deep-set Christian values and beliefs, and I hold the same. I know that the bible says being gay is a sin, but I know that sexuality is not a choice. And the vast majority of my friends are the conservative, which i am too, but I've always been very tolerant of homosexuality- the most tolerant in my family, which my family dissaproves of. I have multiple gay friends whom I love to death. But I'm so confused. I don't know if this is some phase or I'm just really horny??? Please let me know your thoughts about this.

LGBTQ

Don't be harsh on yourself. Give yourself some priority and take care of yourself. You are gud in your own way 😊🫂🌻

3am Thoughts

my test went horribly and now our teacher is going to be discussing the answers and then telling the names of students who got great marks and what makes me feel so bad is the fact that I used to be one of those students and now it's like I can't manage anything and I suck at everything 

Life

Anxiety builds in our idle hours , Fear and resistance thrine when we're avoiding the work . Most things aren't as hard or as trying as we chalk them up to be .They're ultimately fun and rewarding and expressions of who we really are.
Taking small steps will reward you that this is True . it will soothe you in a way that just thinking about taking action, never will.
It's easier to act your way into a new way of thinking rather than think your way into a new way of acting SO , DO ONE LITTLE THING TODAY AND LET THE MOMENTUM BUILD.

Anxiety

This is a long message 😅

So my boyfriend and I were very serious and were moving towards the discussion of marriage, and there was some fiction and we had a huge argument on 3rd September and decided to end it, usually we would mend thing the same day but since things were getting serious between us and we both got hurt, so we didn’t speak for 3 days, and after that we tried to talk but would end up fighting more and not resolve it, both our ego clashed and even the anxious about such a big decision. We were very close and extremely in love
I know it has impacted him as much as me, after what all happened he called me and told me that he kept stalking me on social media (same as me)  i saw him swapping between apps looking where i was, yes i was online mostly but not talking to anyone but to see if he was, just to feel his presence. He thought i started talking to someone, even messaged me twice that have I started talking to someone? I told no, but yes I was constantly online, i knew it was bothering him. 
So Sunday (11th September) he didn’t come online as much, i felt something was fishy and had a feeling that he might be using tinder to distract himself (we also met on tinder btw 2 years ago, we both were using it for timepass in pandemic and found each other), so i installed it too, made a fake account and put my location as his city and found him immediately there, he had swiped right on me so i messaged him, he sensed that distance was too much (so he said are you messaging from space and then he checked the distance and found out which city i was on) so called out that if i was messaging from a different city, so he asked me if i was looking for someone here because even he installed it initially to look for someone, he said he someone he cares for might be using this to move on, i tried to ask him few more things like are you new here and he said yes new right now but he used the account 2 years back also, then he didn’t say much and said that i should continue with the other matches because he was going through something and will probably leave in a few hours. Then I came out and said it was me and how could he be on tinder, he got shocked and started saying he made the account to stalk me because he thought i was moving on with someone and was using tinder, he said he bought the premium version to change the location and look for me (he showed me the purchase) and he had put around 7 photos of him all of which either i took of him or i was with him when he took (he even cropped me out of one photo) and even his bio was everything that we did together like, he said he loves to drive and he can talk about imdb top 100 movies, poem or classic tv shows and he also added a line of a song which i liked and made swipe right on him when we matched on tinder 2 years ago (all these things we did together) I got so furious at him that how could he be here, to his justification that he came to find me but he had a full fledged account with photos and bio to which he said it was all that we did together so he said he thought that if i was also here and see him, id feel bad and message him to fix things (he said he made the account 2 days ago and kept deleting it, first time he said he made a fake account too and he said he swiped right only on fake accounts to see if it was me) we had huge argument and he kept saying he was there just to find me, he said he is in a very bad state because of what all was happening between us and he admitted that if he found out that i was moving on then he was also going to do the same, but he kept saying that right now he was there just to find me (said he could have blocked my number there if i didnt want me to see him) I believe he made the account to check for me, but that time when i found him, he was not my city location, because he was surprised to find someone from so far, I know he was not, but he does not admit to it!

I understand that he was very sad and depressed, he also hadn’t slept in 5 days, but seeing him on tinder like that has really shaken me, he deleted the account immediately and also deleted all his social media account (he did on his own, saying the he kept stalking me and it was impacting him too much), I feel replaceable finding him there but a side of me thinks maybe it was not wrong, he was depressed and didn’t know what to do, don’t know what is right :(

Relationships

Tired ,lonely and need a good friend.

Friends



I’m tired of it all, the endless loop. I work myself to the bone in school, but I don’t stop to enjoy my success. In my mind, if I can do better, I’ve failed.

I worry day and night about my mum. I worry that she’ll leave, or worse as she’s threatened before. I pretend I’m fine, painting on a fake smile, and hoping someone sees through it because I’m too scared to speak up. I feel as though I don’t deserve a voice, after all, then I’m showing myself as a victim, and then I must just be lying to myself.

She says things that hurt me, does things that hurt me. And even when the apologies come later, they don’t stitch up the wounds. I still feel the sting, only adding to the collection. I walk on eggshells, trying desperately to avoid the explosions, but I fail every single time.

I try to say the right thing, to find the perfect answer to an unsolvable equation. But I’m fine, Im okay. Every day I find it harder to get out of bed, to combine myself to try again. I try to help, when I know nothing can be changed. I know that she tries, and she has no control, it’s not her fault, so who gets the blame. I won’t point fingers, I’ll carry it myself.

I walk the middle, taking anger from both sides and trying to balance it all. And saying this all, makes me selfish, because I don’t deserve help when there is nothing wrong, or is there something wrong, I don’t know. To me it’s normal, but it hurts.

 I’m so lost. My friend tells me my home life isn’t normal. But it’s all of known, yet it’s is harder and harder to bear the harsh comments that come out during the lows.

I feel so lonely, in rooms full of people. I feel as though nobody wants me around. And I stress all the time about everything and everyone. I feel that at this point, I shouldn’t get my hopes up, I’ll only be disappointed.

But it can’t be her fault, I know she tries so hard, but that still doesn’t make the sting of her comments go away. The fear remains, even knowing why, isn’t comforting. I can’t help the person I want to help the most.

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have dumped that all out. I bottle every thing up, I have my whole life. I don’t know what to do though, this is me being vague and general.

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