He is driving me insane… telling me constantly what should I do …
And then calling me names and cursing me …
20years of my existence…i think my whole life is gonna be like this living in pain and fear .no matter how much i fucking want to heal …this toxic environment just poisons me … I feel helpless powerless.
Dieing seems like the only option. I think that’s how my life is supposed to end …
I’m tired of waiting for better days. I feel hopeless . Its becoming so hard to get out of my freeze response.