Have you ever felt so much hatred towards your dad that you wanted to seize his existence or like him to vanish (possibly the nicest way I can put it out there) I hate him.. I do. It’s just killing me inside that I’m never able to say this to his effin face. My body hurts with all this hatred. 

Ikrrr but I honestly feel like he should disappear and let my mom and me live in peace 

Family

so recently,i found out that my mom was cheating on my dad with her teacher from her school days...
i just had a doubt up till now,but nothing was confirmed but unfortunately today i just accidentally read my mom's texts to her teacher and found out that my doubt's were not just doubts but indeed it was the truth.....
im 20 yrs old and im not a kid to not know what exactly is happening here...
but the problem is if i do question them about this then my entire family might collapse because her teacher helped us out when our family was in tight spot....
and moreover i dont think someone as soft as my dad would take it if he finds out that his wife is cheating on him.....
what should i do now?

Anxiety

Why my father is abuser? Why he shout & beats us everytime? Why can't he stop drinking alcohol? When my life will be okay? Why I can't live happily? Why? Why? Why? Why God hates me? Why? 

Child Abuse

How is it even possible to have respect for your father even though you hate him to your core? 

hi, i truly believe my dad is mentally insane or bipolar and needs to go and see a mental hospital. today it was sports day at school meaning we needed to take our own packed lunch and my dad agreed to buying a sandwich for me at a shop near the school i go to. (my dad drives me to school as i don’t know how to go there by myself yet - i live quite far from my school)

so he stopped and parked the car near the store and turned around to see me in the back seat. AND HE KEPT REPEATING ONE SENTENCE OVER AND OVER. MORE THAN 20 TIMes he was saying, “tell the teacher that you don’t want to be in this house anymore, and they will take you.” like he repeated it so many times. he was saying it in like a barking voice after a few times it made me laugh a bit so he started getting even madder idk how to explain

and he was trying to imply that if i hate him and my mom and my sister so much, then i should tell a teacher about them and they would take me to CPS or something or whatever people call it

so then he finally got out of the car and got me a sandwich, then dropped me off at school.

when i got home, my mom and sister were at home (not my dad because he was at work) and like my mom was angry for no reason i dont know why, and she started blaming her nerve pain and fibromalgia and 7 slipped discs in her body on me. 

time skip to when my dad got home i remembered what happened in the car and how my dad was repeating the sentence so i decided to bring it up since i thought my dad would be normal about it idk why i thought that

i was like "oh you know baba was like 'tell the teacher that you hate family and they will take you' " 

AND THEN SUDDENLY MY DAD FLIPPED OUT OR WHATEVER U CALL IT AND STARTED DRAGGING ME and he also started punching my arm which i got my covid vaccine in two days ago and it hurt really badly. so i was like "pls stop punching my right arm oh my god"

and he started saying "IM GOING TO KICK YOU OUT IM GOING TO KICK YOU OUT" thats why i think he has autism no hate to people with autism but i have heard they repeat things a lot.

and then he opened the door to the back garden i swear all our neighbours could hear it. then my mom ran to shut the door because well how embarrassing a grown 50 year old man screaming for some reason. (it also sounded like the barking i explained before.)

what happened after my mom closed the door was my head was being dragged by my dad, which hit my moms teeth or mouth or something? AND SHE SUNK TO THE GROUND ACTING LIKE THE PERSON WHO WAS REALLY HURT AND SHE STARTED PLAYING VICTIM

im too lazy to explain the rest but that happened and after that i ran upstairs and since ive got a broken nose and im insecure about it they threaten to punch my nose so it can be more wonky. that annoys me a lot.

so i think my parents are severely bipolar or something i dont know especially my dad because wtf? can someone help me self diagnose my dad with something 
im not a licensed therapist 



I' feeling so low , cause of my dad's illogical fights. My exams are around the corner. So i usually sit outside with my grandfather who was a professor. He helps me study. We also talk a lot and it's one of my comfortable moments.
But, i don't know why my papa does not like it. He hit me on the head and told me to never sit with my grandfather again. 
Anyone please give advice how do i deal with this. I don't want to make him understand cause i don't think he will listen . This is driving me nuts

Anger Issues

Hello, so I wanted to share this from a long time, 
I really don't know what to do with this. Every day I hear shouting and fighting when I get up. Tbh I literally get up with those sound, my mom and dad. I don't know what to do now. 
Basically, my dad don't do anything for us. He earns very less but he don't give us a single penny. He doesn't love us. And he and my grandfather expect my mom to give them money to eat ( which my mom is giving them from 21 years) but my mom fights with my dad every day, it's not her mistake not gonna lie. I also have hard feelings for my dad. I have got a REALLY toxic household. I can't study in peace. I'll not blame my mom but broo it's really hard I don't know how to express it. But you put yourself in my place, how will you feel when you hear fights every morning, afternoon and night, I just can't live with it. My mom is a really sweet lady she's is REALLY hardworking, she's raising me alone. I really love her. 😭😭

My finance and his father asked me to change cause I'm a quiet person. Honestly I didn't like it because there are reasons as to why I'm quiet. Most of the times it's a topic of their lives which I wasn't a part of so I don't know what to say. And there are so many things they do wrong but I don't go around telling then to change. It's become a social pressure when I'm around his family or friends to talk. 

My (step)dad is always so mad and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm 17, turning 18 in July, and he's been my dad for about 11 years now. I love him a lot and I'm glad he's in my life, but I'm so tired of his temper. When he's mad, he'll do one of three things- mumble angrily under his breath, stuff like "no one in this house does anything fuckin right", he'll stomp around and practically throw things he's moving or handling, or he storms off somewhere else, usually his and my mom's room. Sometimes he yells and it's always scary, even when I'm the oldest child. He used to yell a lot before but he's done it less over the years. I know his life is hard with 3 kids, one going into college, and his work life is absolutely shit. But I wish he would at least try to work on himself a little and not be so mad all the time. I want my dad back, I'm tired of dealing with a fifty year old toddler throwing tantrums every week over work or other stuff. I don't think talking will solve the issue, I'm scared to talk to him about major things because of how he just sighs and acts like it's a huge burden to even speak to me. I'm exhausted and I wish I could do something that's not just going to make him more mad 

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