for a long time I have fallen into a daily scrutiny retrospective introspection of my life, I remember the same things over and over again. What saddens me is that some of the things I experienced were not worth it. I should have found the strength to react. after many years I found my self-esteem again. I had accepted to be humiliated by someone, and to have been almost completely imposed on my life. he wanted to control me in whatever I did. I am not exaggerating if I say that for many years "I lived in his shadow".

Psychology

Just depressed want someone to talk to

Mental Health

(This is probably the wrong category) idk why but I don't want to get married although I do want to adopt a child. I can not do chores and shit for my self let alone another person . Also it may be had to do with the fact that I have only always seen failed marriages.

Relationships

Something built without trust is built fake

3am Thoughts

I am trying to study and read the same line a lot of times but get lost somewhere in the past Interactions repetitions in head. I am so frustrated and wanna be alone where there is no human. I don't know what's wrong with people. 

Colleague

I want to go away somewhere or end my life.
Lately i lost my job due to which i am at my home since last 1 year. My boyfriend is has been cheating on me since last 7 months. I see my parents fighting very frequently. Where my mom is victim most of the time. My father is very dominating on all 3 ladies at home. 
I don't know how to get out of this trap. If at all i get job in new city and i move there. I will be always worried about my mom. So this circle seems never ending until i die... 

I'm a 17 year old teen girl. My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years, at first he used to care about my feelings, was always there for me and loved me, he would say that he will never leave me, that we'll be together forever. We used to share each and everything with each other starting from our secrets to how we spent the day.  I belong from an upper middle class family, my parents are traditional thinkers and they're quite strict, they don't want me to be in a relationship at such an young age and they always tell me that first I'll have to be independent(successful) and then I can choose my life partner by myself. So when my bf told me all these things I thought that he was the one(still do) and we even got physically intimate, I Ioved him(still do) and trusted him with all my mind and heart and kept our relation a secret from my parents. I'm a board candidate(class12) as well as my bf. From past 5 months he's completely changed as though there was nothing between us and when I asked him what was wrong, he told me he's having family issues, that his family business hasn't been going well due to the covid situation and told me that he needed sometime to be normal(tension free) again and I was okay with that, but then he started humiliating me infront of my friends and told me that he is not interested in me anymore that it won't matter if I was there in his life or not but after some days he would again tell me that he loves me that he was sorry for saying all those things but then again he would treat me like that and again he would say sorry and I used to forgive him thinking that everything will be alright and then we would get intimate after that he used to tell me that he won't leave me. But from last 1 month he's behaving like he doesn't care about me at all. With everything in my mind I can't help myself but cry every single day and overthink I feel like i'm losing interest in the things i liked to do(hobbies) and also not being able to study properly, all I think about is him and our situation and it's effecting my health and I have a cardiac health problem although doctor said that I am fine now but he told my parents that I shouldn't take any kind of pressure as it could be life-threatening, he even knows about these things yet now he's telling me that he cannot promise to be with me forever or be the way he used to be but he'll be in a relationship with me. His family problem is not over yet that's why I still think that everything will be alright with time. I don't know what to do, should I be with him? and even if i'm not I feel like I won't be able to get over him.                    
  Please give me some advice. Thank you.

Depression

Dating is tough for men in India because:

1. Men often face trust issues due to the behavior of other men in our patriarchal and sexually repressed society, making it hard to gain trust.


2. Men may not understand the challenges women face in feeling safe, and they might not know how to make women feel secure.


3. Good humor and conversation skills are crucial, and men might need to adjust their approach when talking to women. Being funny with friends is different from being funny with women.


All of these challenges need to be addressed even before a genuine conversation begins. Unfortunately, men often avoid discussing these issues with each other, so valuable knowledge, mistakes, and lessons aren't shared. This is just one aspect of the problem, and there are many other factors to consider.

Society

I wish my body was entirely androgynous- I wish it was impossible to distinguish if I’m a woman or a man, and no one could even make assumptions about what my gender is.
also horns would be fucking sick

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