For a long time, I did not feel so vulnerable. I did not feel all the pains rushing in my chest. I did not feel my heart crashing in my hands, bleeding. My eyes are soaked and it hurts. My mind is a mess and I am an idiot. Loneliness has turned me so soft that I can not take the weight of the world in my shoulder anymore. I can not wait. I can not think straight. Like massive ocean waves, all my love, my emotions, my feelings are crashing down. I do not know what will happen tomorrow.
How I wish you were here.
That last line of your statement is what i have been wishing since 4/6. I hope you can battle through these emotions that I myself have. It is hard, but try and remember the good times and maybe talk to those that have your same mindset and problems. I wish you the best in this time of uncertainty because I sure the hell am uncertain about a life without my Pop’s. Stay Strong… I am here if you need to talk.
Thank you for your reply. I was doing fine as the lock down started, but recently it got too unbearable as I got back-stabbed and abused by the person I love and consider as my only friend. The situation did not get any better and my self-esteem, my trust, my love everything is at a very low. Everyday I wake up and something goes wrong and I can’t help but panic. I used to be all alone, but since I fell in love, I kept my heart open and I got stabbed so many times. I just wish the pain would stop.
Don’t worry my friend things will get better for you… Remember sometimes things happen for a reason. Maybe they weren’t the perfect one for u
you after all, but always know there is someone better for you who will always make you # 1. Don’t feel alone, because I am there for you if needed. I feel the same way as you do right now… Everyday is a struggle but you have to keep looking at the bright side of every dark side, because eventually your life will be brightened with love again…