Feeling restless! Can’t even look at my crush and I feel as if his friends laughing abt it

Crush

I m 25 and divorced
Any girl for me 😉


Divorce

Tired passed out from dizzyness last night 

Anxiety

I am feeling very wierd. Idk, It feels life has already finished. Nothing is there in my life to live. I am just pointlessly alive. Why do I was even born. To live this painful life. I don't want to live. I don't feel fine. 
I was not able to cry, I was keeping myself emgaged. But this feeling of apathy. I came to a temple thought I would feel some peace but no I am just crying here. I can't control, even when people are around.  
I feel like dying but I know I can't, that's more painful, it's not over yet. There is more to come for me, more go through. 

Mental Health

Let me tell you all one thing which will definitely help you. If you are waiting for motivation to come, it's not going to happen, it's not coming to you. Motivation doesn't come first, Action does! So, if you're trying to do something and lack motivation for the same, I had to break it to you but you've got to start working on it. Smaller steps or even a li'l bit of effort in a day will do and then the motivation will eventually come! 

Motivation

Does everyone feel lonely nowadays ? Or its just only me? 

3am Thoughts

My girlfrnds sister wedding was this last month, she have been busy allot for more than a month...she havent talked to me for days and havent met me....i was waiting for today since forever, bcoz today all the relatives will go back home and my girl would be mine again...but now she is saying that she is going to her native place with her relatives too....its trivial ik, but i feel broken yaar.....mene bohot patiently wait kiya, aur vo busy thi to kuch pareshan nahi kiya call msg krke, jab vo aai baat krne tb pyaar se usko smbhala aur pucha......i dont know what do i do now, me nahi chahta ki mere vahah se vo ruke yaha but atleast uska to mann hona chahiye na mere saath acche se interact krne ka itne dino baad, apne village me jaake to aur bhi durr hojaegi..

Girlfriend

Qadam chale Phoolo ke raste 
Kaante Zahen Aur dil bezar se

Frustration

I want to go back to one of my older posts. I still feel like nothing has changed for the perverted nice people of this app. 
There's a certain stigma around accepting the fact that you're ugly. People say you're insecure, whereas you really are not; you're just being honest with yourself. It's the truth. No one would say anything if I said I'm beautiful, even though that's a bloody lie. Why is positivity associated with beauty and negativity with being ugly?
I'm ugly and the day people stop being nice to me, I'll be the happiest person on earth. It's not like people can suddenly become actually good, morally upstanding human beings who don't care about how I look. But they can become honest. Hopefully. 

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