Feel like giving up completely. Not on life just with what I’ve been putting my time and effort into. I’m 28. Still living with my boyfriends parents. And I am just fed up. I’ve been on my own twice. Both those times he was still at home. Now I’m just giving up. Burnt out. Im starting to ask why did I waste my time here.I want a family. I don’t want to have this be my family. Let me make a long story short. Or try haha. Two years ago my boyfriends dad creeped on me. Once when I was putting eyeliner on in the bath he came in and shut the door( mind you this bathroom is tiny and He’s a fat guy but like 5 foot 2) come inside and laughs and says now we are all alone. Im like get the FUCK out and he just laughs as he leaves.Guess I should mention he tweaks. The same day At the house he waves me down saying he wants to show me something on TV come quick in The living room and then grabs me from behind. ( he’s shown me stupid animal clips countless times so I didn’t think too much of it) I almost punched him. No one was home of course. Just us two.I had so many thoughts rushing through my head. He flinched down too. I lifted my fist to throw a punch but stopped and i said your lucky dude. To this day I WISH I DID BEAT THAT FUCKER. But I would of went to jail. And I’ve never been in trouble with the law… he’d have marks and I wouldn’t so it wouldnt look too good… Anyway nothing was done. Family acts like Nothing happened. When someone does something severe everyone turns a blind eye… Oh and I can’t tell you how many times I walked in on his dad watching porn. In the living rooooom!!! Not once did this guy say oh sorry. Nope. Just oh didn’t know you left. My boyfriends brother has tried to fight with me while drunk. In the beginning I was nice to his family. But now 11 years down the road they have given me too many reasons to despise them. I just really don’t know what to do. He’s the youngest of three boys. Is the only man in the house that helps his mom out. Fix her car. I bring her to Dr appointments. Clean etc. I just feel like if her husband who hasn’t worked in 30 years could step up I could have the life we planned on having. I Love his mom. I’d never take him away from her. I’m happy to be with someone who actually loves there mom and respects her but if her husband could actually be a husband we could have gone long ago. Being 28 and worrying if his parents might knock on the door or his brothers while we are trying to have some alone time is getting soooo fucking old. The brothers tweak too. I just can’t deal with tweakers and thieves. The moms the only person who is normal. Boyfriend and I smoke good ol Mary Jane. I truly don’t think he understands how much this has affected me. I’ve almost just left because I know there are real loving people out there. Real families. Real people who care about you and others. I’m used to living in a home where family is first. Where we all help each other and not hurt each other. My families never done anything to my boyfriend. My parents have never fought with him. But I’ve fought with his dad and brothers. He’s never had to deal with taking shit from another family you’ve done absolutely nothing to. It pisses me off. I’m ready for marriage and kids. His dad knows he will never meet our kids. I told him that the day he grabbed me and he just laughed at that too. I just can’t take this anymore. What would you do? Leave? Yeah I should of done that long ago. I’ve wasted time helping clean and cook and picking up groceries while I go get my own groceries. I don’t mind helping people. But if his mom is more comfortable asking me to help fill up her tire and not her husband than what are you even doing with him? Beat his kids growing up. Sold his children’s things to get drugs. His kids almost got taken away by cps multiple times. Sorry all done now.
Wow umm I’m so sorry you’re going through all this. You’re a strong woman. Idk if I would’ve been able to hold back that punch, I would not even have thought about the consequences. Not much I can do to help here, but sending more power and strength to deal with this. I hope you get out of there soon and live with the people who actually care about you. Youre a good person. Virtual warm hugs 🤗
It ok. I just feel like since he abused his wife and kids and his kids are grown and can handle him now I’m the new target he can try to mess abuse and control. Hes still an ass to his wife but knows my boyfriend will shut that down. He only tries to start crap when no one is around. I also had my dog with me so I didn’t want him to get involved either. If I attacked him my dog would of joined in lol. And thank you! I have learned to just leave when he wants to start a fight. And also grab my phone and record him! He doesn’t like that haha.No use in arguing with someone who thinks they are always right or forgot they did horrible things to you or your kids. You can deny the abuse but there are old pictures with bruises that show that dark side of you. This guy is the type of person who throws a tantrum when I’d bring home fast food for my boyfriend and myself he’d get upset because he didn’t get anything. Well get a job and go get yourself a car and go ahead. Thanks for taking the time to reply! And thanks for for the warm hugs! I’ll stay strong!
Oh so he works from home at “being-an-asshole-for-the-family”… well good that you’ve come up with means to shut that.
Sometimes I think of all the things women have to go through just for being a “woman”. Sometimes it starts from a really young age, molestation and shit. I always thought having a boyfriend or being married would change that, but I’m really sorry and enraged at the same time to hear ur story. People like these should be stopped u know, but I dont know how. Our indian system is so ill-equipped to handle matters like these. And then there’s society , ready to judge anything and everything. I hope someday I’m able to do something regarding this, however small be it.
