Everyone makes their own choices.... Every choice has its own consequence.... Don't beat yourself up for someone else's choices. No matter how close they are to you. 

Bhavna P.

Mental Health

Me wondering if I have bipolar disorder:
Me also asking to define what is bipolar disorder: ...

Depression

What have they done to this application

Now&Me Feedback

My life is going smooth but it is difficult. A lot of things going out of my hands but a lot of them being okay too. It's weird but I guess that's how it's supposed to be. 

Other

What's so special about late night convos, that sometimes you may end up getting attached with the person you talk with?(not necessarily in a romantic way) 

3am Thoughts

I feel alone and have nobody to talk and share my thoughts..I live with my parents who are nice and caring but I can't talk to them like my friends as we have difference in opinion everytime we discuss anything. I feel like I am living a 60 yrs old life after retirement and it bothers me sometimes. Also I am been pressurized to get married but not finding the right partner, which is an add-on pressure and stress. I am frustrated and can't keep my sane.
I feel emotions like fomo, low motivation, exhaustion, would never find true love, genuine people, have to compromise big time and the uncertain future scares me, difficult life ahead.
My mental health is poor.

Hey ! I have noticed a negative pattern in my behaivour, I am too emotional. Whenever I do a casual activity I tend to put in too much thought or effort even if the given thing won't be relevant the next day. It stresses me out and tires me. Any advice on how to be more relaxed and easy-going, and accept things as they are. A helping hand please :)) ?

Pain continues....

I don't know how people get through break up pains. It has been 3 weeks since i broke up with my gf. But it still hurts. I just cry randomly. I feel like my love meant nothing. We broke up because we won't get accepted by our families. She n me still in love. But she started taking her space now. To get through this pain.she is not someone vocal bout what she going through like me. She has different ways of dealing with it. But her ways hurt me. It makes me feel like i am a useless person which i know i am not. I know my worth. But it's funny how in an instance you can lose your confidence, and make you hate yourself.


My world turned upside down. I don't know what i should do. Everytime i think i am over it, i realize i really am not. I am just convincing myself that i am fine. I stopped telling her how i feel also coz i don't want to look like a child. A clingy person. I don't want to burden herself with the pain my heart feels. 

I am trying to fight my own demons. I thought i was a strong person. But looking at me yearning for a love which won't come back to me i am ashamed at myself. I try not to feel this way. But i am helpless.

I can not talk to my family about this nor my friends. So i am simply faking everything is fine and smile and hide it. Stuck at home with this pandemic and i don't know how to let the stress out.

I don't wanna let her go. It is also painful to hold onto her. The biggest mistake i made  is investing my feelings for a relationship with uncertainty. I can not stop blaming myself for that. My world is broken. I am not the kind and sweet person i used to be before anymore. I feel like i am changing. 

Today is her birthday. I called her at 12 at night to wish her. She didn't pick up. She said she was in family group call. But for that moment i waited all day. I counted every single minute. And when she didn't pick up, i broke into tears. I understand bout what happened. I shouldn't feel sad, she was prioritizing her family. She called me back a little while after. But i didn't pick up since i was crying. I feel like a bad person  for getting angry and the worst part is i no longer have a right to get angry. And i never ever got angry at her before also. But i didn't show her that n messaged her normally. I didn't wanna ruin her birthday. But that moment i won't forget till i die. I felt so unimportant to the person i love the most.

I wish i could escape from how devastated i am feeling right now. If only i could...

Holding onto her is painful. But i see no other choice. She is too precious for me to let go or to be forgotten. Simply trying to deal with the pain n get through it.



Breakup

Being insensitive and emotionless is very easy but the person who is suffering because of this is broken from inside..
I will never expect anything from my husband…he clearly doesn’t want to do anything for me…he has no attachment towards me n my kid.I don’t hate him but I had little expectations but now nothing. He is very clear about this.

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