Don't jump into the conclusion without knowing about the person or the matter cause how much hard they try to act happy from inside they are actually broken and need someone. 💔 
Right now i am in hospital for check up but no one even bother to ask me if i am okay . 🥺🥺🥺

john

duggu 🤍

zhimo

I am in hospital cause i cutted my wrist some days ago . So treatment 🩸🩸

It's simple for me now . It's like my 6th time in this 2 months 

It's not because of love issue it's because of my parents relatives and my so called friends they always mentally and physically abuse me my friends betrayed me that's why I prefer to talk in chats rather than in person. And about my sucide attempts it's one week ago . 👍

Yes . But delayed in response too may miss some persons

Plushie 

Anxiety

Wishing you all happy new year 💐🤝, because in this happy new year day all should forgot any uncircumstances ,🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝 jealousy, and any mis understanding with ur frds and with your heaven and make hand shake and make frds to your heaven also because this new year brings you a lot of happiness by wearing new clothes and meet new people and handshake .. so in our gujju we say this festival saalumbaarak means happy new year so enjoy and make frds with your heaven also and forgot all miss understanding and be hand shake and be a frds start new frdship with this new year day... Wish u happy new year 🤝🤝🤝🤝

3am Thoughts

Today I am feeling so grateful that I could able to help someone and be the reason for someone's smile
I met with one lady and she was feeling so anxious as she had to reach somewhere urgently and no transport was available at that time then I stood by her till she got one transport and she hugged me and gave me blessings that I helped her by just being with her ❤️❤️
Sometimes we just have to do small small things and you dont even know how these small things can bring such joy in their life 😊🤗

Compassion

my babies are hungry😢😢😢


Mental Health

And somewhere I thought I'm bad but only got treated bad by the people around me. That's what lead us mostly to get changed 🥀

Today I had a down. I couldnt get up from my couch. Just ate bread for dinner. Was forced to put away dishes, and i had a moment where I couldnt stop looking at the knives, I was figdeting with my hand so I dont grab one and slit my wrist. It was so fucking hard. My siblings were there and I wanted to do something to kill myself, I was this close. I couldnt stop thinking about it.

And my family always ask, "That time of the month?" 
Im over it.

Suicidal Ideation

Just want someone to sedate me so that for some moment there are no thoughts in my mind. Want to feel the calmness of mind. Just tired of this overthinking and continuous thoughts. I feel like going and having a drink of old monk nicely but it's a task to go to a bar make sure the bar is far away from where you live. 
So I smoke but smoking also does not help me. I never get that rush when I smoke, can't even smoke properly ugh!.  I can't smoke it in properly as if a lump is there in my throat not allowing it to go in just in the mouth and out. Makes me wonder as if I'll definitely have  mouth cancer (does not stop me from smoking). sometimes it feels as if I wish I were not there only reminds me of the time when I was small waiting to cross the road with my mother coming back home from school. I was tired of waiting the vehicles not stopping and I just went and bam almost go crushed by a taxi but he stopped it and I was not hurt much , but sometimes I wish should have ended there only as I grew up to be this loser and stupid person who is not an ideal son, does not have a good career and mostly confused.     

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