Does it really get better? Because I’m finding out that I’m mostly struggling and always sad. 

Honestly- I feel exactly the same..its like impossible to ever be happy. It might get better..I hope you feel better leah

I feel like I'm getting distant, from my family. I don't want to be insensitive, I don't want to drive myself away, but I like spending time alone, I like to think alone and be with myself. My parents miss me. When I spend time with them, it's chill for some time but then it starts making me a bit uncomfortable because our views do not align. I don't know what to do, I feel really bad. 

Relationships

I am not actually sure about my feelings right now. I don't know if I am happy or sad..in a dilemma. I have finally officially ended my 8 years of toxic relationship. I am happy that I feel free now... no negativity. But sad that it had to end this way.

I'm just feel like im useless 😔😔

3am Thoughts

Screaming my thoughts heree!!

How many deaths have you died to be so strong?

How many times have you screamed to be so silent?

-Steffi

Does ANYBODY feel the way I feel..trapped, choked up, miserable and lonely? Like, is that all there is to life? I wake up, I work, I sleep. I have no friends, no interests, no hobbies. Nothing brings me joy. I am hateful, I am confused and I am tired.I mean, when I imagined what taking a gap year after my graduation would be like: this was NOT it. This is not what I wanted. This is still not what I want. I want better. I want different/ I think work is only always going to make me sad. I am an artist. II used to paint. I used to CREATE things. I used to CARE about things. But now? Nothing. What do i care about? Nothing. What do I want? Nothing. Does anybody FEEL the way I feel? I feel TOO much. I feel it in my bones and in my soul. Sometimes when my brother is rude to me underneath it all I can literally feel my heart BREAKING into pieces. I feel the weight on my shouders. After doing so much for everyone, all I ask for is a bit of reciprocation. Yesterday my father said: Don't behave like a victim. Ok but what if I am?? I know I am. Doesn't mean I am not FUC*ING powerful. I am a victim of these people's misdoings and misery. I deserve safety. Does anybody feel the way I feel. please tell me I am not alone. That would be the last straw for me. The last straw.

YOLO

Reached home after 60days , overwhelmed 

You can sound the alarm
You can call out your guards
You can fence in your yard
You can hold all the cards
But I won't back down
Oh no I won't back down
Oh no
Oh no I won't back down

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