Dec 14, 2021

Good morning 🌞🌤️
I hope that you are having a good time today hehe. Yesterday nothing so especial happened, it was just another normal day I didn't even do my activities  instead i just binge watch two ongoing kdramas which is the "Shadow Beauty" and "Our Beloved Summer" and its already 3:25 am when i fall asleep wtf-- 😅

The two kdramas are worth watching specially "Our Beloved Summer" brrr the chemistry of the two protagonist are so cute! 

Now&Me Thinks

She's gone back to him again most probably, that N guy. I miss her, I wish she knew what is going on with me. How my sleep is on and off. How everything I see in my dreams make me awake and think about her. How I see her face in every face. I thought I'd be okay with her being with someone else other than the person she's currently with but I guess I'm not okay with her being with anyone else. I am obsessed with her and no updates from her life is making me crazy. I've stopped studying, I have become unproductive, I don't feel like doing anything. Where are you, please talk to me. I want to pour my heart out to you

3am Thoughts

Hey.i am new here very first interaction.somehow I found this platform atleast to say what I actually feel .where nobody gonna judge me and no one going to give me statements about why I feel this and why it's wrong and atleast I can share my actual feelings.. already wear a happy mask daily..I hope this will help me.. feeling not myself not only day it's almost years now..and now it's unbearable

Life

So what does  Astral Projection feel like?
There are yogis who say it's not everyone's cup of tea but still one can reach that level of achievement with dedication and proper learning. 
Whereas there are some other experienced people but not yogis who term it saying anyone can achieve it at ease or maybe after a lot of practice.
So has anyone experienced it? 
I'm a beginner and really want to dedicate myself to experiencing Astral Projection 

Spirituality

hey, newbie here, i would love to have meaningful conversations if that make sense. im in the middle of crisis. like i dnt know what am i gonna do. no job. loveless. basically im just hiding under my blanket most of the time. and thingking what am i gonna do with my future, if theres one for me. right now im just swinging and pep talk that evwruthin is gonna be alright but there are days that i juat cant handle it. its just so frustating how days turn into nights, how nights turn into days and the clock just goin so slow. slow that almost stop tickin if you know what i mean.. and so much more.. hit me up. thanks

Adulting

stressed out
I really like someone and I am trying to figure out if they have been leaving subtle hints lol

I met someone recently last November we are just friends right now. I like someone for the first time in almost 12 months .We know each other through common friends, she is a teacher. We are in different time zones.

We only met like once 5 yrs ago briefly, she is one of the common friends of my friend . Last year I went through breakup after 2 years of relationship and she herself is coming out of a abusive relationship .

She actually teaches in china ,but her home country is Chile. She works for a science company and also does a lot of volunteer work and counselling around the world. 

She has a busy schedule and she works according to the Chinese calendar ,only has 2 days off in a month. She went back to Chile now to visit her father who is sick so right now temporarily she is doing classes from her home in Chile


We have been talking for the past 2 months. Even if she is busy she always responds to my messages when she can with her busy schedule. 

I call her wonder woman because  because she is teaching, taking care of her family, does volunteer work, doing her masters


Once we were talking about lockdown hair and all ,she sent me selfies of hers quite a few of them because she wanted to show me her hair. She is beautiful and stunning by the way.


We have been talking on skype past few weeks and one day she told me
she was browsing things to buy and she came across a perfume which mentioned wonder woman fragrance or something lol and said it reminded her of me and sent me the pic of that perfume lol because i always call her wonder woman

So a week ago I got busy and I couldn't message her for 5 days she texted me on the 6th day She and said she wanted to check up on me see how I am doing. Then told me that apparently there was a huge fire in Chile wildfire and 25000 have been evacuated so she had to evacuate with her family temporarily, they are okay and back now

The next day I texted her saying how are you and in the middle of the conversation it was kind of unexpected but she sent me couple of voice messages on skype in the middle of our texting. She told me that they had to evacuate again because of a false alarm of tsunami and all that and asked me how I am doing.

We last spoke on Monday .I left her a message on Thursday asking how she is doing by sending a gif. She saw it but hasn't responded yet. I know she is a very busy person and has a lot going on but just not sure what to do next
I am waiting to hear from her or will reach out again at some point.

Relationships

Im not able to eat food like i used to, I used to loveee food i still do but feels like i have lost my appetite for a while. Wt do i doo?

Confusion

On the 25th of December 2023 09:46 PM, I lost her. The only friendship I ever had with the girl, came crashing down because I was about to confess to her. She understood it before I even did anything. But that was that. I had promised myself and to people on this app itself, that I won't tell her. But, I don't know what I was thinking, I went completely out of control. Though she and I concluded that we were and remain friends throughout, but I realised things have gone south between us. It took me some time to actually believe that she was really gone. I am not the type of person who makes friends easily. I had dreaded the thought of forgetting her and thought I wouldn't be able to live without her talking to me. But, something began to dawn on me. I realized that I was still living. Even if she wasn't there, everything was the same. My life, my parents, my goals. So, I decided that I will continue to walk. The past was past. The future is in the future. What I have is present and I'm not going to ruin it. I promise you. I promise that I am going to make my parents proud. I am not going to let myself down. Again. I'm going to crush it for ever and ever. The memories of her would remain with me, but memories are what they are - memories. They are meant to stay where they should. And I will try not to care whenever they come rushing.

It was a long text and I'm glad you read it. Thank you!! I hope it helps someone to heal, because it is working for me. I don't know how much time it would work, but for now it is helping. That's it. That's all that matters.

Hello guys
Here is a lockdown and my exams are postponed due to pandemic 
Now I’m bored af we can play games etc. 
anyone interested...?

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