Come to think of it 
I actually don't have any childhood friend who was with me or anything , 
My nature confused people they see an happy person in me who is talkative always smile bright, 
They are busy seeing my face my bright smile so they don't see the scars i have on my back 
Actually don't have many friends 
I know lot of people that's it 
I'm not sad about this nor happy
Happy friendship day 💕

Zia Khan

Even I'm busy 
But isn't it about priority 😅😅

I can feel u buddy ❤️❤️ everyone is busy in their own lyf can’t complain 

Intro

Do you have friends ? 
I don't 
I might have had friends but i stopped talking to everyone 
I always do what i feel like 
And over the years i have been in a place 
Where i dont feel like talking to anyone
I just sit alone and be alone 
Go out alone 
And sometimes it just makes me sick.
My best friends weren't very trust worthy 
So after their wrong doings i just cut myself out of social life
I don't feel like being friends 
I want that one person whom i can love 

What should i do 
To get over this feeling 

Lonely

man i miss talking with people and socializing i got no friends once so ever anymore its so sad :(

Depression

Hey.i m feeling betrayed  by my friends (i don't  know whether i calm them friend or not)when they  know you well they know your weakness  n make fun of it..criticize  it  ..when i tried to set my boundaries..then their ego got hurt.n they stop talking to me i tried to clear things that ut was affecting  my mental  health n all..but still  they think i m taking sympathy or lying.nd stop talking to me..i feel very low as i have always been there when they needed..tried my best.at one point i felt that they were never my true friends.how to get over this feeling??!i know all i can do is ignore. But its very hard for me as i treated  them as my family.  At the same time the way they r treating  make my heart breaks into thousand  pieces. Why people have so mu h hate to do..why cant they be kinder..why can't  they try to understand  other person's  point of view??

Mental Wellbeing

I have this strange pattern with most of the people i have met in my life, in the beginning there is a very good connection and a lot of communication that happens with the other person and we end up really close for a while but later we get so distant that the other person just behaves like they don't know me...
This is so frustrating that I don't believe I can have any real friends 

How stupid i was to think that they are my friends and care for me , everything was fake ...

Growing Up

This is the friendship i had always wished for. Though it didn't meet my expectations I'm in it because we have to thankful for what we have got.
Ours is a grouo of four. But people aren't happy in it. We're struggling. One of us is really struggling to be with the rest. Because we have different interests. Three of us some how get along. But the other one is struggling and most of the times that person doesn't like being with us.
And there's been a misunderstanding now which has created a bad air. And I'm so done. If someone asks me something i might ask them to just break this, move on and be with whom so ever they get along with. I'm so done. Its not about this misunderstanding. There's been many instances like this. But we just let go such issues. Maybe all of us need to break up. May be I'm negative here. If things are one sided, be it friendship or any other relationship. Its meaningless right? I can't do this anymore. I tried convincing both of them to sort things but when people ignore my texts when else can i do? I want to give up on this. Many times i brought muself back but nah! This time i can't. I have to give up. And i guess thats the best decision i guess. The problem is my mind. I'm a fickle minded person. I'm a monkey. I keep jumping making random decisions amd end up hating myself. I'm done. I'm so done with this.

3am Thoughts

You won't know the real me until I let you.

I don't know how it feels like having good friends. I never had one. All of them backstabbed and hurt somehow. Now I've shielded myself from such people but, I feel so lonely sometimes. 

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