Agr phle jaisa hota sab kuch to tumne btaya hota muje tum aa rahi ho, aur tumhe aaise dekh ke maine tumko bola hota kii jb tum aas pass hoti to muje feel hota hai. But ye sab kuch nhii hua tumne shayad dekha hii nhii muje ya jaan ke ignore kiya. Aur mai rooya kuch time ke liye dekh ke. But ye sab waste of time and emotions hai q kii kisi ko nhii frk pdta kya hua kya nhii. Mai bas faltu soch raha hu subah se. Kya bolu aur bas muje nhii feel krna ab kuch bhii aaiaa.

Bahi 2 saal hone ko aa gae mere usme koe contact nhii hai mai apne man kii baat likh raha hu tum gyan de rahe ho

Breakup

So i am working with an ngo there i met this guy . 2 3 baar hi mile hai hum and we went to Pacific after the drive. There i asked him what will you have. He said anything from dominos so i ordered a farmhouse and the minute i opened the box he was just looking at me and said i will not have it i am allergic to mushrooms. He didn't even tell me about this and he just had the drink. I told him to just remove the mushroom topping and have it but he denied. And what else we can do with the pizza i just brought it home . And being an introvert i don't know why am i feeling this awkward meri toh galti bhi nhi thi. Dimaag mein ye hi chal rha hai pehli baar gae the or kuch khaya bhi nhi...


Social Anxiety

Kbhi socha kisi ne.. Ki yeh zindgi hme kyu smjdar bna rhi h? Mujhe esa khyaal aya ki agge apne bcho ko shii raah dikha ske. Unke mental health ka bhi dhyan rkh ske isliye.. Kyuki aj kl k most of the parents priority nhi smjhte mental health ko. Mujhe vibes aa rhi h agli generation ke sath kuch acha hoga kyuki hm lok parents honge. Hehe.. Random thought 🥴

Ek baat h lekin hmare parents logo ne zindgi jii too h.. Mujhe lgta itna stress nhi hoga tb... Kyoki technology nhi thi itni log door the bs Pyaar tha.. Hmara to tehs nehs h menttal sbhh kaa

Adulting

Zindagi se ek ajeeb rishta hai mera, pal me hasi, pal me rona. 

Hasi hai logon me saath jeene ki.
Aur rona hai unhi logon ko chod kar jaane ki

3am Thoughts

Hii. Mai rona chahti hu khulkr yrr but meri sbse bdi kamzori yhi h ki Mai ro nii pati. What can I do.?? I have so 
much pain inside my inner but cant 

Loss

Just scolded my bsf because she thinks her life is only messed
She says like this "yrr tari to sirf family problems hai par mari to humesha he jindagi kharab rhati hai or wasa bhi mara ghar maie family problems hoti bhi naa to mujha kuch ghanta farak nhi padhta"
And she thinks that my life is very good

Frustration

Bhaagte aya hoon logo se , connections se , pyar se , na kisi ko aane diya life me naa khud ko jaane diya kisi ke , Then all i got. Is thrones instead of roses💔

Anxiety

Meri ek female best friend hai lekin i think main usse like krta hu ye baat maine usse btaani bhi chahi lekin vo hasske taal deti thi or vo mere mind mein rehti hai main humesha uske baare mein sochna nhi chahta career pr dhyan kaise du?

Crush

Aaj mere niece ka 5th month bday tha, every month mai sath m celebrate krta lekin iss bar Mai ni hoo, to meri ek bar behn se ache se decorate krk sb kuch celebrate Kiya, usne mujhse hi kuch paise liye the,jitna manga itna diya, sbne celebrate v Kiya lekin kisi ne mujhe ek v pic ni bheja, video call v ni, mai hmesha sbko video call krta tha. Hmesha aisa hi krte h sb log, chath Puja mein v koi mujhe ek call ni aata tha. Mere account m paise hai ni fr bhi jitna ho rha usse jyada bhej rha. Atleast thoda sa toh mere bare m sochna chahiye tha na. Decoration ka pic bhi mujhe snap se mila. Jarurat padne pe call aajata hai lekin aise ni,
Kuch 3-4 mahine m kisi ko mere jarurat v ni pdega to fr koi mujhse baat v ni krega. 
I guess that's life
May be Ghar m kuch issue hua ho jo ni bhej paye. May be jaruri na smja ho unhone, mai 8 pm se call ka intezar hi krte rh gya. Maine ek bar call v Kiya toh unhone bola abhi decoration ho rha aur Addie soyi h baad m video call krenge, lekin fr kuch ni hua

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