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Breakup

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Mindfulness

Small world..🌎 

3am Thoughts

This morning I had a really bad nightmare and couldn't sleep so I started to watch Netflix on my phone, and later went to the living room and watch tv, so far my morning was shitty. Later around 11 am was my lunchtime and I was doing hw instead since I am behind in classwork, my mom was in the kitchen, and my sister came into the living room and I asked her for help on some math homework that I was stuck on and she technically exploded on me and saying why I wasn't paying attention and she just gave me one of those glares that I hate so much. My mom notice and she was telling my sister why she was looking at me like that and they started arguing in front of me, since my mom was winning the argument (Mexican moms are best at arguing 😌) my sister started to bring up my grades saying stuff about me that hurt, how I always didn't understand a thing and that I should be doing better and that I had missing assignments (like 2 from physics, and so many daily drawing from my elective class), and when she was my age she was taking harder classes, that she could finish a drawing in only one day but at the end, she was just saying hurtful things that made me cry. They couldn't see but I pretended to do hw but I was crying silently. It's not my sister's first time snitching on me about my grades and I've told her before that I didn't like what she was doing and she always says that she won't tell and that she will help me and I always end up trusting her again. I had a mental breakdown when my mom and sister went back to their room, It was very hard to concentrate on hw because when I get a mental breakdown my mind starts to run off...I couldn't stop crying but I still managed to hold in my tears since I am used to doing that, I also slapped myself in the face because I was very stressed out about the arguing, I hate it when they do because I can't stand loud voices. I pulled on my hair and slapped myself again, I don't know why I do that, I calmed down a bit but I was still very anxious/stressed so I had to cut again. I still have to ask my sister to help me since I am not the smartest person, I just have to pretend like her words didn't hurt me and laugh at the jokes she will make about It, It's always like that. 
I just want to fucking die at this point...what a day huh.

Family

Just why people have to come to your life , act like they care , give you the best memories and then freaking leave and act like they don't know you....was everything just a game ? They now behave as if they don't even know your existence.....passing by the hallways and making eye contact.... there's no recognization.....Never knew people could be so heartless....If I did something wrong please confront me instead of just ignoring me...

I’m feeling a bit insecure about something.

Warning: this will most likely be very long as I’ve been holding this in for a while and couldn’t find anywhere to post it besides here. Apologies for grammar mistakes, it’s the middle of the night.

I’ve been in the US for 5 years (originally from Portugal, did 1-3 grades there) and I’ve been thinking about my accent in English. I’m going into 9th grade in 8-9 days.

Don’t get me wrong, I **like** my accent! It’s one of the reasons why I don’t want to speak English to a native level, it feels part of me. However, lately I’ve been feeling kind of nervous about it.

A lady at a store asked me for some help while my family was browsing some stuff, and when I answered I suddenly felt like my accent was thicker? Maybe it was because we only talk in Portuguese among ourselves and because of COVID the last part of 7th and all of 8th was online, so I didn’t speak English outloud much.

I’m not sure. A teacher in 7th grade (before COVID) once mistook me for being Polish because of my accent in English, when I told my older sister she said that my accent in English was perfect. I don’t know why she lied about it, I know for a fact It’s not perfect. I’m fluent in English, but I can’t speak it to a native level and I struggle with the rl’s a lot (I cannot pronounce world or girl).

Now comes my Portuguese accent. My family and I are from the north of Portugal so if you’re familiar with it you know what it sounds like. I mainly think in English, mostly only write in English as it made me forget most of my Portuguese grammar and I have difficulty re-learning it. Some of my aunts have said that I’m starting to have an American accent in Portuguese and I HATE IT. I have nothing against Americans of course (most of them are super nice people!), but I’m *Portuguese*. What kind of Portuguese has a foreign accent, especially an American one? I don’t want to be mistook as being foreign or something when I’m Portuguese myself (Again, nothing wrong with that, it’s just that I don’t want to be judged and seen as if I don’t care about Portugal).

I feel like I’m starting to adapt some American culture too (smiling way too much, super friendly) and I’m nervous it’s getting rid of my own culture in the process.

I have no friends that are *not* American which is why I’m not asking them since I know they wouldn’t really understand it. There are some Portuguese-crossed kids but they were born and raised in the US.


I feel really lost, and I’m nervous about going into high school. Many of my classmates have changed from nice to rude from elementary to middle, and now that we’re at high school I feel like they will be worse.

I know it most likely won’t happen, but I guess I’m just kind of worried somebody will pick on my accent or the fact I’m not American. 90% of them don’t even know where Portugal is which  makes it worse. I would say that I’ve fit in quite well, probably because nobody cares about Portugal. If I was from a popular European country like France I do know they WOULD care,  when I spoke that I visited family in France people were ‘impressed’? I don’t know, it was confusing. What’s so impressive about going to France?

For some reason it feels like it’s my first time in the US again. I regret doing and saying some things in 7th grade (who were quite.. stupid) and I just don’t want to give off a bad impression and I’m worried people will remember those things.

For clarification, I’m what people call the ‘quiet kid’ if it’s by stereotypes, some dude in my class seemed honestly shocked when he heard me speak, so I don’t get much attention which I suppose is a good thing. I also make sure to always be very friendly so I wouldn’t say I have any foes (though two girls dislike me for some reason? I don’t know). I feel like I’m much more extroverted online than in real life.

I’m really, really nervous especially since some kids in my grade are very.. patriotic? Nothing wrong with that of course but they’ve said some things I disagree with, especially since my mum is not an American citizen. I stand up for the pledge of allegiance out of respect for the United States but I do not sing it as it is not my country. I don’t want to stay in the United States forever, and I get homesick of Portugal a lot. Portugal isn’t perfect, but it’s still my land.

I’m starting to feel like I don’t belong anymore, I’m feeling really lost..

School

Im feeling lonely and i have tons of friends that are in relationships but idk i know im young (13) but like im lonely

Relationships

Its just repeating with time...and becoming more frequent with growing age...I m 22 and still am not able to take decisions and i can't even eat what i want to and do whatever I want to whenever I want to...whenever my father comes home he always quarels with my mother and imposes his decisions...I have always wanted that they should get divorced and he hates me and my mother...he always says that i am emotionally blackmailing my mother...and m against him...no one even doubts him anywhere bcoz he is good socially...i m always feeling mentally and emotionally disturbed...how am i supposed to study and complete my mbbs if this keeps happening...I have always regretted to be a girl.😔 and if god exist why don't he relieve us from this pain

Emotional Abuse

Can't believe that 2021 has ended. It was a mix of different emotions, experiences and adventures. Wanted to explore it more but yeah eventually everything comes to an end.

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