Yrrr 
Clg life sucks boht zyada social battery chahiye to survive and i am done with it but can't have that courage to leave my grp or friends.
Any advice..🙂

Like should I become a loner in clg or should I continue to be in the grp/friend circle 

Oukay 🙂 
But let me add something
There is this girl B and we both like each other and like CLG mai time nikalte thoda baat karne ko yeh thoda kyu bola batata hu 
My bsf A she hated her due to past mai ek scene hua tha now she made me choose ki ya toh woh ya toh mai🙂 and the whole grp was silent,i was shocked but i didn't choosed anything but this whole thing just gives me stress. 


Friends

Anyone here who have good knowledge about crypto currency and nfts and have been investing? 

Work

Jivan khushi deta hai...
Dukh bhi deta hai....
Dil todne ke liye mahboob deta hai..... 
To dil bahlane ke liye kameene dost bhi deta hai......


Breakup

Andhrikanna yekkuva anukunna person tho andhrikanna yekkuva importance icchina person tho yekkuva roojulu kopam ga vundadam matladakunda vundadam.
  .... Challa badha karam ga vuntundi kada....

I want to share these things if some one could help me out to handle this.
I have severe OCD, even i have been diagnosed from past three years. Still i am not seeing any improvement. But when ever the doctor asks me how i am feeling, by that time i feel i am fine. But after returned home, especially when i am alone or no one sees me, i behave like mad.
These are my symptoms am facing -
I am always scared of god or any devotional thing (either it is pic, or song i hear, any temple near my place), i feel like my sitting or lying position is directed towards any temple or god pictures..etc..so i cant sit or lay down properly for more than seconds.. i always gets up and slaps me and then sit again..i wont be satisfied.. i again gets up and slaps me and sit…again repeat the same thing too many times till i feel like to cry.
When ever i read a book or watch tv or sitting idle or doing some office work, all of a sudden i get the god/goddess pictures flashes in my mind. and immediately i imagine them nude and their private parts or having sex each other, even some times with me too. —- so i feel guilty and stands on my feet and slaps myself and asking for forgiveness and crying and begging excuse of my sinful thoughts - and i don’t be satisfied by doing this once or twice. I do it repeatedly till i get tired
I always get thoughts of spitting on the god pics, always want to kick them with my feet - immediately i realized it and again asking for excuse repeatedly.
I heard in my child hood that ‘Sani Dev’ is the powerful god and punish us for any sinful acts. I always remembers the name ‘Sani’ prompting that ‘Sani , Sani’, .. if i want to do anything, i immediately get a thought of ‘if i sit like this, Sani will attack, if i do like that Sani will come...if i drink water, Sani, If i don’t read this, Sani’ and i keep changing my positions, directions, repeatedly..
and i wanted to wash my legs properly and if i don’t wash properly, ‘Sani’ will attack..so i repeatedly wash legs again and again and make sure no gaps...if a single drop of water fall on my leg or even if i feel wet on any of my leg, i have to wash my legs fully, otherwise ‘Sani’.. repeatedly...repeatedly..
It became how severe is, all my thoughts of God got replaced by Sani.. Yes..I am getting thoughts of spitting on Sani, Abusing Sani with bad words, having sexual thoughts with Sani..I feel like if i get some thoughts of any other god like this, somehow i could ask for forgiveness and feel relief.. But getting these thoughts on Sani Dev is like a hell to me...i really don’t know how to pray how much i should beg for my abnormal thoughts.
And thinking about over cleaning repeatedly washing hands ..especially when i am in periods, i literally change my dress at least 5 to 6 times in a day and even though if i wash my hands face properly, still i get the doubts like if there is any stain earlier…and i shouldn’t touch there, my clothes shouldn’t touch there, so immediately remove that dress and i shouldn’t be get touched myself by those clothes, so i wash repeatedly again and again… I can’t stop washing if any water drops spill over from the wash basin ,. Also i repeatedly clean the things like chair, sofa…etc. thinking that my period stains touch that place, if i place my mobile or any object by mistake at that place, i do wash them too repeatedly…i even clean the things though they are not touching directly also...like it should be cleaned if any other object which is in contact of any other object that again which is in contact of that used clothes or anything like a chain (though there are no stains at all).
I am really tired of doing all these things on the whole day, i am unable to sleep properly, feeling to commit suicide, whenever i see high buildings, places… i desperately wanted to jump over it..
I am still taking the medicines for this, still i am not happy with the treatment. I am really fed up of taking pills from so long time and want to stop...that’s why i am cheating myself and telling that i am fine to the doctor and to my husband (he literally frustrated with me, he is getting angry if i tell him that still i have problem or if i am not fine)..
I always want to punish myself for my thoughts, scared of each and every moment in my life, scared of the next minute of my life thinking something bad may happen..It is disturbing my work life, personal and family life..
Please help.. please help..


Mental Illness

Why do we punish ourselves and others for saying something stupid? Why? I came home, my brain fried from all the work I had to do, I had another class and because my teacher kept on talking and never gave me an opportunity to speak, in the moment, I just happened to say something stupid about the calculation and he told me to "shut up" 
I was so taken aback because I am trying my best here. 

3am Thoughts

I don't want to be sorry for who I am my entire life

Depression

Love that doesn’t include honesty doesn’t deserve to be called love 😤

Exam ki routine aagaye. Gaand phat gaya😭😭😭

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