You're the best! Just wanted to let you know before bed.

Good night.Time to close your eyes. 

3am Thoughts

I can't anymore.... it's getting worse

Suicidal Ideation

Hindi movie suggestions please....

Movies

Hey you know I got some weird dreams in the afternoon when I was taking a nap ... And also I'm in periods so fir mujhe bohot sad feel hua toh I was crying fir then mujhe laga bhak why would I cry and then I went to my near by market and bought 3 ice-creams for myself and I ate them all 🙈 

Self Love

Heyy guyzz
This is my first ever post on this platform..I used to read everyone's comments so I needed ur help guys..
So basically I am in MBBS first year..
My college is out of my city so I had to get into a hostel..(which I hattee..!)
I came here just 2 weeks ago..till that time we had online classes but now we had to come for offline practicals
My mom stayed with me for 5 days settled everything and left..
But problem is I like to wake up early and study like at 5 am..
I can't study late at night 
I am a early learner but can't wake up early by myself
I woke up at 5 everyday during my neet prepration..
But at that time mom used to wake me up..
I can't wake up by myself or by alarm I tried it 1000 times..I need somebody to shout like hell at me
My mom always shouts at the top of her voice to wake me up 
But now the problem is I am stuck in my hostel and  I have online classes from 7 as offline classes got shut again but I oversleep and miss the first 2 clasess..and no is there to wake me up in hostel..
My roommate is very mean..like very very mean..she doesn't even talk to me in these 2 week. she just talks with her mom and boyfriend all day long and has headphones always on..she literally was telling her mom on call yesterday that please get her a curtain installed between her and my bed because she needs "privacy"
She wakes up at 4:30 but she straight away said no to help me when I asked her
We tried another thing that my mom will call me at 5 but that was also unsuccessful...
And my roomie shouts everyday by the amount of alarms I keep and with wierd tones
Please please tell me how can I wake up early
I already miss my home and here's another problem
And also I haateee mess ka food
Like it's so blank.. no masala at all..
And dal me dal se jyada pani hai yrr
And in sabji oil is poured like they own a oil factory...
Roti is like papad..emduk bekaar..
Like I am not disrespecting food but seriously itni fees bhari hai thoda to acha hona chahiye naa..and mom said strictly no for canteen food as it's unhealthy
I am done I miss home..this isn't 1% of what I expected yarr...
And biggest hurdle is I can't wake up by myself..
Kya kru mainn..koi bata do yrr..!

Frustration

I don't know why I feel this towards my love ones, Im so afraid that I might hurt the people I love. Idk why why my mind think this way maybe its my fault or maybe because I experience traumatic moments that Ive experience.

When I tried to open up to my Mom, she accepted me and I felt happy but few days later I suddenly get anxious if my mom really did accept me?? or not?? my mind always think negatively which it can make me feel more miserable, Im so scared what if those words were not true?? but its my mom?? she is the one who gave birth to me..so I need to believe the words of my love ones. But is not that I dont believe it is just that making sure of it idk why.., i keep thinking about it and trying to to keep it postive but nooo. If people talk nicely to me my mind misunderstand it and think it that it was lie. 

i need help, im afraid.

Delusion

Hell is other people

Quotes

I have no friends who can motivate me or support me in my bad times 
Idk why but it seems i have some issues in me that's why people don't want to be with me 

Lonely

Shuru k 70, 80 saal he mushkil hai... Fir to maje he maje hein

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