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I am new at this soo idk what to say .....i guess this is a rant. So i have a boyfriend..Both of us agreed to keep it casual since we knew i would get an arranged marriage. I am 21 btw. I got a match through a party i went to yesterday and his mother loves me now. I am in my final semester of college and that guy is 26 years old....earns well and uk the shit. My bf is also nice sweet and is successful......i already got a job....no financial problems or anything.My bf is young too so i cant randomly ask him abt marriage that will spook him and i cant reject this guy without a legitimate reason....he is okay with me studying after marriage and shit man.....

I wanna say that I need to quit my jobs to my parents
But I'm scared that they will be disappointed in me
I don't have a plan for the future..
I tried so hard to cope with this job but that is making me miserable.
I feel so worthless
I don't know what to do
I feel like if I work another day in my job I will break

Work

Imperfections are beauty, madness is genius, and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring -Marilyn Monroe

Coming Out

I crave affection so that my soul feels complete.
I don't understand, are these days harder or loving me is.

Lonely

I got a lot of feelings bottled up inside, I need to let them, I just don't know where to start. 🙇.

I am just so exhausted. I had a nervous breakdown this morning. Everything seems to be creeping up over my head. I have so many things to do but I am just so exhausted. I think that I might be suffering from depression or anxiety related issues but when I sit and evaluate myself and my problems, I feel they are way to small for someone to be depressed about. I have trouble sleeping, I am back to home because of this stupid lockdown and it doesn't feel good. When I was away from home, all I wanted was to be close to my home and my people but now that I am here, I see the petty issues and fights people get in and I am just not able to deal with it. 
I don't understand if people are not happy with each other why the hell they don't leave? Waking up everyday, listening to people passing sarcastic comments to each other is really getting on my nerves! 
Getting up everyday and thinking that it's gonna be a brand new day but nooooooo. We are always back to square one in home. The need to have peace and happiness in my house is killing me everyday. Whatever I do, I am not able to have peace in my house! I just want to run away but if I will leave then it will bring bad name to my family. Too many thoughts, too much of analysis! I feel like, I should just remove my mind from my body so that for one sec it stops thinking!

I just don't know if there are some unresolved issues or the lockdown or what! I am just so done...

Confusion

Heartbroken.
Their is this guy I am in love with. Long story short, we both fell in love but then I broke up since it was long distance nd I couldnt handle it bcz I had exams to give and he said he would wait for me and then when my exams were over  he told me he is back with his ex.
Currently, he texts me whenever he feels like talking and I being syupidly in love replt him with the same enthusiasm, excitement, nervousness.
My heartbeat fastens whenever he texts me.
But when I text him first (sometimes), he just acts like he wasnt the one talking to me a few days back that he wants me so much sometimes.


Relationships

He deleted me from friends 😂 ;-; why what's the problem 

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