You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

Long Distance Relationship

 It is what it is. Yesterday, after drinking red whine, I confessed him! I finally told him the things I wanted to tell for so long. No matter what happens after, I feel like took it out of my shoulders. Let the universe decide! 

Now&Me Thinks

Would any girl like to be my bestie 🤭

Adulting

Feeling like i cant do this anymore I keep thinking about how happy i used to be before all of this shit went down in my family and i feel like im letting everyone in my family down and I wish i could just have my life back how it used to be

3am Thoughts

Today I was talking to this indian lol and she told me tht Indians date other Indians only 
Well yeah naye it’s true maybe it’s not but please help me clarify this, what if your soulmate is an American yet u are a South African 🤦‍♀️

Discrimination

How to forget the past. Or any human you were close to?

It's kinda amazing to see now that I'm finally working on myself to be better and change my mind patterns, how comfortable I feel in my negative space of mind due to my accomodation in it. I've been there for so long I made a home I shouldn't have. Trying to get out of it it's so difficult because I don't think it's right, it makes me feel weak and embarrassed and uncomfortable. Very uncomfortable. I self-sabotage myself by feeling guilty and shame for trying to get out and change, for trying to not live miserable for once. It's so hard it makes me want to give up, and that's why I feel lucky that I found myself, my true self and can grab into it so I have the enough strength to get out. 
I always thought that those bad feelings, self-sabotaging thoughts and miserability was part of myself. That was me, there was no point of getting out because that it's what it makes me. I couldn't escape myself after all because I'm me, and that all together made my life a living hell. From outside and inside. It made me pity myself, bitter, sad and angry. I took years of trying, giving up, and all over again. The painful cycle. But I want to believe I did it... I found pieces of myself in all that dark water. None of that bad shit defined me, I'm not the exaggeration of evil that my mind created of myself. I'm so much more than that, I'm capable of a lot... I'm believing. I'm healing. It's beautiful.
Of course, this is life. My cycle of healing is just beginning, and I'm sure my path will be difficult, but I finally found the strength to begin. A strength to keep going. To break the cycle  to change my patterns of mind. 
Healing is a process that I never thought I could reach but I'm starting and I'm happy for it. I'm believing, which is important too. I got something to hold on, and that's me. It's painful, uncomfortable, embarrassing. But it's beautiful. And if I have to go through that journey no matter how long it takes to reach my best self, then heck yeah I will go through all of that to reach it.

Self Esteem

Hey buddy 😄
If you are free please chat with me
I like to friendship with you 

Crush

Three years ago, me and my family were coming back to home through a train. The train was very crowded. An old man touched me innappropriately, but I didn’t responded thinking that it was my missconception. He again touched me and that time i was sure that something was wrong about him. Third time,he did the same. Being a 12 yr girl I just slapped him and he was like, why did u slapped me,what did i do? Even knowing what he did. But u know the heart breaking thing was that, my own aunt told me to shut up my mouth. At that time, i should have been encouraged and praised for showing bravery but i was crying all the way long. My aunt told everyone that she didnt got a seat that’s y she is crying…till now this no one knows except me and aunt…And it is somewhere inside hurting me badly…I m sharing this becuase i want everyone want to know that keeping quiet is not the solution…fight for it.

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