You know what hurts the most

When you give your best and still feel useless

Don't worry you will get a better job ✨

Feeling this right now didn’t make the cut for a job I was looking forward too :( 
But life’s life so u gotta move on 

Family

I don't want to serve God or the Devil. I just want to not exist.

Failure

Life isn't black and white. It's all the intermediate shades of grey...

3am Thoughts

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I feel so guilty because of my past I don't wanted to do that but I did I don't know how to communicate with a boy he asked me my name but I was so anxious that I told my friend name..... urhhh seriously I was so dump 

Anxiety

I think I'm very insecure and jealous about my girlfriend and i don't know why... She's the most loyal and genuine person but yet i feel jealous when she's happy or goes out with friends, i feel insecure of her being happy without me, i feel like she should give me all her attention all the while... I feel very jealous if she's doing better in things than me... I feel jealous if she appreciates someone... I feel insecure about her being financially better than me and more mature and well settled than me. Because of thiss everyday I'm disturbed all the tike and not able to be fine and concentrate on my work. I don't want to feel like this. I don't know why this is happening. I trust her the most, but all of a sudden i have started to over thinking everything about her. I genuinely want to do better. Please help me out. 

Overthinking

I secured two govt job but I was going through a lot mentally and physical health is really bad, not for now, but for a long time and ptsd and what not. Like I was really at the bottom, in pain , so I let go of the jobs and decided to focus on myself instead. Because I have before chosen career over my health and me and then everything came crashing down. Thats why I decided to treat my trauma and myself first, take a break from everything and then worry about career. 
Somehow my family came to know about my decision and they are making me feel guilty abt everything. I told them that I am not ok and I can't and dont want to go on like this. I want to get better myself first. I am 23 yr old with depression, anxiety, body dysmorphia, ptsd and maybe eating disorder. I only weigh 33 kg for my age. So you can understand what I talking about. 
Was my decision wrong. I know its difficult to get govt job these days I understand but I am so fucked up

Frustration

Boys ask their girl to stay away from some guy because they don't get the vibe. But when a girl says the same then she is jealous!! Isn't that weird? It's not always about trust but vibes matter. Girls too have evil intentions like guy to hinder an ongoing happy relationship 

Boyfriend

I am way too much stressed today . Just keep crying for the whole day . Feeling alone , depression and anxiety. everyone in my family keep fighting with each other and this environment sucks. Missing my old friend whome i can't contact . All these things affecting me alot i can't understand what to do how to get out of it.

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