You know what friends, I have learnt a very important lesson today.
Don't have any expectations from anyone, have absolutely 0 expectations, that's the only way you won't get hurt. 

True, but it's just a matter of time. Your mind will start expecting things and again you will have to feel like this in a cycle. Self love is more important than not expecting.

3am Thoughts

Today is my 21st birthday but no excitement at all 😂😂😂

Glad to be alive, feeling sad. 😶


Conflict

I swear I put on my makeup, do my hair, pick an outfit and feel great but the minute i put my glasses on so i can clearly see everything i feel hideous lol 

Other

I need a genuine advice. I am preparing for a competitive exam that needs all my focus and time and I just don’t wanna feel any sort of human emotions which is so impractical but I feel like I suck at handling them . I have lost alot of friends since I entered 11th, haven’t attended even a single birthday party , had deleted my socials too for while . Now there’s someone I have a very genuine connection with, we’re good friends not really dating or something but like there is something. We were having our issues so we didn’t talk for a while but slowly things are getting better and I wanna stick to him because I cannot just abandon him like this . He understands that I get busy but I’m sure he feels bad too and so do I because from talking atleast 3-4 hours a day , we barely talk Ab . But it’s clearly the most important year of my life and I’ve got to focus on my goals first . So is it okay if we just a share a few words on weekdays but I can actually just talk to him till late on Saturday? Like idk I feel confused. Because if I just delete everything and stay away from everyone, I begin to feel a lil lonely and it just sucks . 
What should I do exactly ? 

Confusion

Recently, I’ve been feeling very depressed. I cry almost all the time. I recently graduated and scored well but inspite of having good grades and doing everything needed, I’m unable to secure a job for myself. I don’t know what am I gonna do in life. I’ve been trying, but nothing seems to work.. I don’t want to face the world anymore. 

Depression

I hate my life.
All I do is suffer. 

By the way, crying and consoling yourself in the bathroom and and then sitting at the dining table with your family is also a kind a rebellion. 

everyone ignores me today, i feel useless and want to die.

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