You it hurts so much when you prioritize your family over everyone and then suddenly you realise that your feelings literally mean nothing to them even though you care about their feelings so much. :)

Family

Family is everything make sure you hold it down for your family 

3am Thoughts

It is okay to feel like you are burden to your family?

Anxiety

Sometimes I feel I am not a part of this family no one tells me anything and when it comes to mee they want to know all . My own father alsoo 

Well my parents got divorced like 2-3 years ago and I feel like our family is still actively falling apart. I have three siblings, but one of them is already an adult so I live with two siblings and my mom. My mom and dad constantly badmouth each other to try and get us to view things their way and hate the other parent. One of my siblings never follows the rules we have set for our family, so it seems like the rules are now useless. Our family never knows how to communicate, and I feel like we never apologize or anything to each other. We have tried to fix this multiple times, but it always goes back to the way it was before. 
How do I cope with my dysfunctional family? I feel so conflicted, and I just don't want to deal with it all anymore. I've tried talking to other people in my life, but it's so hard to open up because I have anxiety and can't talk to them without fearing judgment and stuff. I don't know, I'm just here to rant haha

I am scared and tired of everything. Literally I have my mom who asks me to do everything as she says and support her whereas my aunt who calls me and tries to prove that mom is acting miser and all. And that I shouldn't support her and all. She even questioned me about my beliefs and feelings. Idk. I feel like I am stuck between the two sides. I don't even know who to choose. I feel soo pressurized between the two. I speak to my sister about both and this is hurting me. Who do I stand with is what these people want to know. I feel suffocating. I really would like to break free from these people. Like travel somewhere far where these people can't bother me. 🙄

Society

They are hella toxic still I have to think of them... Argh
Do they even onow I am alive just for them but ofc not coz of them 
They are the reason of my emotional and mental disturbances and still I have to fight the anxiety and depression alone living with them  idk now how to handle this ... I hope someday this race intensify so much one day that I get the courage to leave this house finally and make a step 

Mental Health

Well I don't really know what to say I'm not really someone who shares my feelings I always keep my feeling locked inside but these days it's getting harder and harder.

Well my problems are not really too extreme just the feeling that nobody loves me not even my family. I feel like they are happier without me in the picture. I sometimes just sit and watch them interact with each other so lovingly and laughing with each other and I just sit there with longing in my eyes.I feel like I'm the black sheep of the family a mistake actually, sometimes I really do feel like I'm not Loved. How I'm always being yelled at, being called names I would never wish anyone to be called by my own family or parents who actually snap at anything if I do wrong, I think according to them everything you do must be perfect. They don't really know the effect of their words have on me. To add to that the constant bullying I receive about not being good enough or not being pretty enough or how my body is just shaped horribly. I have thought about ending my life so that they can finally be happy with me gone over and over again. I don't really know what this platform is really about I just wanted to let this off my chest. 

Lonely

I fcking hate my family so much. It’s always my elder sister first for things. And I am just like some utility who you can use for bill payments etc. 
i wish I had a more loving family

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