You are beautiful inside and out. Stop focusing on all the things you dislike about yourself and start seeing all of your unique features. You are a work of art, my love. Everything about you is amazing and you are good enough the way you are.

Make yourself better by growing and learning everyday! 

Happy

Kismat ki keemat hoti, to kasam se hum kismat khareed lete tujhe paane ke liye.

Life

Insecurities 
Everyone has insecurities in different form. My insecurity is my acne and acne scars sometimes I feel I am so ugly. Whenever I see someone with good skin I always think that they are lucky to have such skin I feel no matter how they look or how they are as person they at least have good skin which I don’t. Whenever I see someone with normal skin I wish I had skin like them. This also causes depression and anxiety I feel like tearing off my skin. Most importantly when I like someone I always think they deserve to be with a beautiful girl and not with me.

Acne

This question for the ladies ,  consider me immature or not but should i consider it a red flag if a girl have lots of guy friends like lot , she just chats with them but it bothers me 

3am Thoughts

When people don't wanna talk, why do they start Goddammit!! 

Anger Issues

ive been so deeply in love with C i’ve dropped my walls, the walls that were up there ever since my toxic ex (Z). I didnt thought I would find love like this again. Ive changed my methods of loving by being more open minded when it comes to literally everything. 

id admit I was toxic too when i was with Z, I allowed her to control me when it comes to friends, and family. she made me push everything including the things I love to do and all that im left with is her. 

Ive learned to let people live the way they want to as being together isnt 2 lives merging. We both still are two individuals with our own group of friends, things we love to do. 

C broke up, I was there, I gave her the love that she needed and loved her how she wanted to be loved. Suppported her in everything she does. But then after giving out so much love and not receiving the same amount of love and efforts I felt like she have she dont really love me like how I do. It felt one sided. 

I talked to her about how I feel and she told me thats her way of loving me but it was never enough for me because of how much my ex have hurt and betrayed me. 

We had a fight last night while I was telling her about how I feel, recently we’ve been having small quarrels and it must be because we seee each other day and night  bc I sleptover. 

I told her maybe we should take some time off to think about why we quarrelled so much because we usually dont even and hen we just started having some disagreements over texts and turned into a fight. I teared up and I just want to see her and stop fighting. I decided to go over to hers to talk to her. She didnt know I was coming. 

Ive arrived under her block, I walked around thinking bout life for an hour and decided to go up. I at her doorstep, texted her “wanna come and get the door?”, she immediately replied and went like “huh?” , “you came?!. I waited and she only opened the door after 5mins. I wondered why, because she would usually rush to the door to get me in. 

Then guess who I saw…

Just lonely

Confusion

Ab ni lgta yrrrr khuda khusiyan bi dega mujhe kabhi.... 
Pr khuda jitni Khushi to meri hisse ki katta h sari kaat mujhe koi takleef ni bs duniya ko khush rkha kr yrrrrrr!

Vo bachpan yaad h mujhe jo maine jiya ni 
Jehr pila dia aapne aur khte ho humne piya ni
Ek ek cheez jo tune mangi khushi khusi di khta h dia ni
Jitni saja tu mujhe deta h utna to koi bada jurm maine kia ni
Kabhi vakt lage to dekh meri taqdeer ko pad use 
Pata lge bachpan se ab tk ka shayad hi mehsoos ho tujhe
Khte khuda maa baap jaise hota h jo mango deta h 
Jisme aap khush ni vo pr jisme aap khush sb leta h 
Ni rehna aapki Khushi m khush ae khuda humko
Hum apni khushi m gum bi seh lenge smj ni aata kya itna tumko!

I am absolutely ok! But kuch alfaaz. Aise hi 🙃❤️


There no one, dark everywhere only few lights shining brightly flickers...
I sat alone...no one there?? I sat here.... wating for their arrival...
No one there?? No one there?? I sat alone at the dining table...
Looking at the hot dishes served... But I didn't eat it... just staring
Waiting for their arrival.....I secretly dipped my fingers in a soup..
And tasted it....no one was there looking at me.....so why was I doing this secretly...
I stared...I stared....I stared....at the food that started cooling down....
Stil no one there??? It's empty....empty all along...
Waiting...and waiting I wonder why was I the one always waiting..
It's too lonely...too lonely...yet they won't understand... won't understand...
Sad...am sad....I am sad....so sad....so lonely...
I wish there would be everyone together in this dining table...
Enjoying the delicious food that had been served...I too would be happy...happy..
Yet there still no one there??? No one there....no one...
I sat alone....in this dark room...with no one along...

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