Yet another day of struggles and overthinking......everyone just makes me feel so left out and i end up feeling so lonely...... Idk how to cope up with this thing..... Never get too attached to someone, not even your friends as they too can end up hurting you bad... 

Just some shitty days..... Stuck up in middle and don't know what to do

Adulting

May you have Regina George’s confidence, Karen’s amazing butt, Cady’s ability to grow, Janet Ian’s amazing art skills and Glen Coco’s fame

Other

Kaisi Teri khudgarji..
Na dhup chune Na Chaho..

Memories

Hey people🖐, I just wanted to talk to somebody about anything. Ping me if u r up for it

Now&Me Thinks

Few months ago I installed this app I was depressed and hopeless, after spending some time on this app I met an clumsy I_d_i_o_t, who is full of his own perception, he faced a brutal struggle in his childhood and teenage still I never saw him complaining about anything, I didn't wanted to live anymore but this guy made me understand the value of life he taught me how to deal with useless people who just wants to hurt you, today I am alive because of him, one day he disappeared, he used to say don't get attached to me i can vanish off anytime I thought he is just joking but one day he really vanished I don't know vo kaha hai kaisa hai lekin jab tak sath tha those were the best moments of my life, I am not hopeless now I am not weak now it's just I miss him 

3am Thoughts

I met someone online, really liked his company. After 2 months of constant talking, he just stopped talking to me. Let’s call him X.

I felt very lost and hopeless for 2-3 months after that. Then he calls me & wants to become friends again. Meanwhile, I became really close to someone else who filled in the gap. Let’s call him Y.

And I met Y first and we became really close. In fact, we’re very comfortable around each other. He helped me get through some of the toughest moments of my life including borderline depression. Recently, he confessed to me & I like him a little too. v platonic again.

Soon after, X was in town & we met too. Totally platonic excepting holding hands (although he said he wanted something more). But I was so angry at him because he’d ghosted me & he gave me an explanation after 8 months. I wanted to meet him to tell him that I don’t want to engage in his company. Instead, he said he likes me & wants to take this ahead. Of course, all my feelings came back and I couldn’t hold back. I feel like I want to forgive him but his mood swings are erratic. I have 10 days left in the city & I don’t know who to choose & how to get over X.

I told X that it’s too late now & I’ve met someone else. but the ‘if’ always remains. What if he hadnt left.

I know I’ll regret being with him but he stood me up. And it’s been a bad phase. And I cant think of anything else but how to get over it. And Y has been such a good friend. Although I dont feel so strongly for him but I do love his company.

Am I cheating on any of them???

Breakup

Mera college offline nahi hoo Raha haii kya yarr matalab koi lyf nahi rahe gayi haii bass ghar pee Rahi aur sadoo . Yarr ek dum alsii matalab haar alsi hoo gaye haii kaam karte haii par tabhi yarr I feel sad when I see my friends enjoying college life and I am stuck . Like what the hell . Yes I want to live the college life but nothing is happening and I know if this is not the covid thing they are just taking advantage of it . I know it's hot but please this is precious I am already in my third year and this shall pass soon let mee enjoy it please God make my college offline.  

College

Sudden sadness
Today I just feel a sudden sadness during a period of time don't know why this happens due to my bday which is coming after some days  or maybe due to my ex or maybe due to that I wish somebody make me feel special don't know there is sudden pain arise in my thought process which create mess inside my mind don't know how to sort these things maybe it is just a soft corner let it go 

Relationships

Hello.. I want to know something from you guys..
I had a breakup 3 months ego and my ex don't have to come back again with me i had tried a lot but he doesn't want to come back. He told me he had no feelings for me anymore and now he is in a new relationship. Now I want to move on but I can't, I still have feelings  for him now. I tried a dating app and a guy wants to go on a date with me, I told him I will go with him... But from inside my heart I don't want to go with him. I feel like I'm cheating on my ex-boyfriend, he will hurt if i go with this new guy don't know what to do now.
Should I move on with this new guy? Or i should take time😔 to cope up from my heart break?
 

I can't decide what to do. 

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