Yesterday in my psych class , our teacher asked who all want to be a wife and then she proceeded on to ask who all want to be a mother. It was so nice to witness that as she sat there listening to us without any judgement. I'm so thankful to have had a teacher like that :)

Happy

Should i read the shatter series or twisted serious?

Books

Anyone age 18

Teenagers

'Don't use thinking to avoid feeling'. You don't have to make sense of your emotions right away. Trying to make sense of feelings (intellectualizing) gives you a false sense of control. This stops you from actually feeling your feelings. So, they never go away you get stuck.

Instead, let yourself feel the feelings first - name them + release them (cry, write, talk, move). Then, try to figure out why you feel it, what you can do to feel better and how you can do that.

Mental Health

Right now..this day, this time.It is my mother's birthday. As i overcame much guilt and instrusive thoughts...and got to work:

1. This typical corporate client who delegated some work to be -i'm a freelancer- yesterday due to my own anxiety, burnout i couldn't do it until now and just sat to do it. - The account manager of that group is tagging the senior and getting after my life on the company's group. It is infusing more guilt in me, but i am accepting it that that is how corporates work, 

it was a human mistake n limitation at my end and it's okay. My/these mistakes don't define me or me capabilities :) -big victory for me to think like this.

2. I stayed at home for my mom's birthday and to be with ailing dadi as others were going to go out. Ailing dadi herself fought with everyone and went out to the mandi. so annoying n helpless.

3. Right now, triggered my ailing dadi, mom got super triggered, called me to vent twice, i and i tried my best to be there, hear her out, order lunch for her bday, drew my boundaries and came inside my room. 

4. There my mom,fueled, got triggered by brother's action and lashed out at brother so so so badly. Brother already dealing with massive mental health issues, went into a loop of loathing n emotions. 

5. I tried my best for few mint o pacify them, and swiftly came to my room - accepting n knowing - unamangiblity, powerlessness, boundaries. 

Wow, i really realy needed it let all of this out and glad i did.  abit , no much regret, of staying home, of not doing impending work sooner. but knowing i did and doing the best with the information and capacity i had.

Now, finally getting to much procrastinated work!!!! 




Anxiety

Anybody wants to talk about career related stuff?

3am Thoughts

I haven't achieved my goals, I am still in the process. I used to think that I will be happy when I will reach where I want to be but recently I realised that if I am not happy during the process then I will not be happy and content when I will achieve my goals. We will truly be never happy if wait for the future. Be happy now and enjoy the process as much as you can. Stop thinking about the future and be yourself today.

Useless, hopeless and good for nothing ☹️

Relationships

I have Become Insecured about My looks I always feel Like I dont look Good. I dont Have a Good stylish personality. All the Girls i see around When I go to malls or anywhere they Look Good and Here I am Looking Bad. Plus I am overweight I dont dress up Good. I am ugly 🥴😪😪💔💔

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