Ye pyar kaise hota hai😜

Jab koi 4 din se zyada yad aaye,
Hum uska intzar kare or wo humare jane ke bad aaye,
Dil hai ki raat din bas usko hi yad karta hai,
Jab khayalo me bas uska chehra dikhai deta hai,
Dil chain sukoon sab kuch kho jata hai,
Kisiko bata bhi nahi pate ki kya haal ho jata hai,
Agar tumhe ye sab kuch ho gaya hai,
To pyar ke is charchit college me apka bhi admission ho gaya hai ✌🏻

Life

Waiting for evening rains, collen hoover books n coffee<<<< 😭😭😭

Adulting

So i don't have a lot of friends and like 2 weeks ago i thought to myself that i should stop texting the 2-3 friends that i do have, it's almost been 3 weeks and none of them have texted me yet idk what that means but at the same time i also understand that everyone is busy with there own life and i should not feel entitled to anybody's time however the past few weeks have been really lonely so that has gotten me to wonder if i was a bad friend. Dating is not much of an option for me coz (1) i don't think that i would be a good boyfriend (2) I come from a Conservative family so if they ever got a whif of me Dating it would be a problem even though I'm 18 and bout to be 19 in a few months

Sometimes i just lay in bed thinking if I've ever done anything to make someone feel proud of me sometimes when my parents talk to their relatives about me they always say nice things about me but i still feel so ashamed, i feel like a failure 

How to fill this Hole in the Heart?

A hole that people created.
A hole that life created.

There's nothing in this hole. 
EMPTINESS

Pain and suffering is good to a certain level as it makes you an 'Empath'.

But when suffering crosses its limits, then the opposite happens. 
You become Bitter!


How do fill this hole? Haan?


Do you ever feel like you just want to be alone but also dont want to be lonely

Anxiety

"Like a sparkling ray of hope
On my wintery days
You kept me warm
And I can't escape"


3am Thoughts

Why do people blame us for the things we don't even do? 

Anyone up for chat .


Lonely

People at my coaching are mean. Like really mean, dirty minded and filthy thinkers. I was talking to a guy who sits ahead of me and the guy who sits next to him asks for more space, so the guy I was talking to suggests him to move into one of the empty seats, the adjacent sitting guy goes "tu Jaana peeche uske paas" like wtf I was asking a doubt I had from the lecture. The boys make fun of women and others in class as of they have some sort of supremacy or god given rights of 'perfection' 
And then days later one of them commented on my body because he was frustrated 
They talk cheap stuff. Not only the guys, but the girls too - I stayed back after class for doubts and the some girls who sit in the back, made fun of mean for asking my doubts. Like why? They make fun of the way I talk and I often use other languages to communicate. I can't help it. I was trained this way. no matter how much you force a language on me, it won't help. I wanted to tell that girl, I didn't laugh at you when you wanted to sing in class and you sounded like a horse having a cardiac arrest. Wtf. Be nice please. I hate going there just because of them. I hate it 

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