Wish I could be embraced, wish I had someone who could love and appreciate the scars received from various battles of life.

And I'm sure so would anyone 😊

Hope you keep smiling too.

Thank you for saying that, much appreciated!

Likewise, if you wanna share anything, I'm here


That's really kind of you. I have opened up in a recent post. :)

There's much more going and sometimes it becomes difficult to hold on to life.

Tbh initially I wasn't into it but then he always stated it was mutual. Usually I don't let people get close to me bcos I know eventually it will hurt me. Thought he wouldn't do that to me and I let him access my energies and time but..I can't beg for love..I wasn't insecure as a person, he has no idea that I let him instill insecurities inside me.. that triggers my anxiety..

I need to just keep myself away from these emotions. I used to have a strong emotional defense mechanism earlier. But I had a personal loss in my family post which I started feeling lost. Became detached from everyone yet craved for love and that's how landed on apps.

Indeed and that is what has happened. I had installed this app yesterday and found it fascinating as I could pen down my feelings and could be heard.

Thank you!
I still keep smiling 😊

Let me hear you out too 🌸

I'm sorry to hear that. I know the wounds received emotionally might still hurt. And here you are, strong enough that you're being there for others. It's sad that we live in a world where people lack compassion. It's pathetic that humans behave in an inhumane way. How are you pulling through? 

Also, I'm not sure if asking this would be right but if you want you can text me directly.

The way we had our conversation, I'm definitely more than comfortable to talk to you. Kindly connect.



The feeling of loneliness or that void, I can relate. Have felt that. I can't imagine how you've pulled through. Honestly, I'm proud of you that you didn't give up. I used to have thoughts of giving up but I managed to come out of that.

I hope you're out of that phase, aren't you?

Thank you for confiding in me. Also, I'm grateful that you provided me a space to open up. How do I identify you in message box? There were a couple of requests. I don't wanna talk about it to anyone else thinking it's you.

Compassion

I've felt good helping people out here and it felt kind and nice. Really appreciate the owners of this website and all other initiatives taken by you'll. Cheers🥂.

Gratitude

I'm just a girl who's incapable of loving and I just can't figure out why. Every boy Ive attempted to get into with a relationship with always fall for me and tell me they love how I carry myself and the type of person I am but I just can never get myself to genuinely like or love them. Im very aware that I am the issue (self aware queen) but I just don't think its something I can fix. Just a girl on her computer who's bound to be alone but that's okay 

Mental Health

Lete huey jitna sukoon milta hai. Jaane ke baad utna hi dena padta hai 

Lete waqt hi dene ka bhi fix hota to aaj lene ke dene na padte.

Kisi ko bhi lo, soch ke lena. Utna hi dena padega. 

#Karma 

Anxiety

Anyone who is Gujarati?

I want to do my driver license but I don’t have any friends in the state that I live or family, my family is overseas and in this state I have no frients that I can count on them , so my only choice is to pay for an instructor at driving school to help me. I am sure I will need more than 10 hours of practice because I don’t know a lot of things. My best friend told me that she took only 10 h of driving in another country and that was enough before she can pass her test in USA but I am sure that this is because her parents helped her here in USA sometimes . She makes me feel stupid because I need more than 10 h of lessons and told me ohhh, she doesn’t understand why 10h are not enough for me. I know that for her is easy, yes she took 10 h but she had her parents with her and they drive and every time she had questions she could have them but I have no one to help me here compared with her and I may need to pay an instructor for more than 10 h. Do you think her behavior is normal? She is judging me and acts like she is smarter and I am so stupiddd  because I need more hours… thats how she makes me feel… is this normal?

Friends

Day 93 of writing journal entries.

I’ve finally got some plans for the upcoming days! Lots to do this week that I won’t talk about yet, but I am excited. Today though, was a great day! I played lots of chess and I made dinner as well, it was a really yummy linguine pasta. I’m gonna sound like a child when I say this, but I did it all by myself, and It was delicious! >:3 hehehe

I’m left feeling very happy and upbeat, it was a good day.

Personal Growth

Is death better than humiliation for not meeting up your parents'a nd your own expectation?
I asked them for help told them about the su*cidal thoughts i get... They said "you have everything and you haven't yet seen life.. Don't make a drama out of it you don't need a the therapist... Just be happy and everything will be fine!"
It's like talking to a blind person about how beautiful the world is... Why don't you see it?

my dog is everything even if she stresses me something, i love her with all my heart , too bad my parents don’t think the same 
i get so anxious bc they don’t care , they don’t give her water when i’m away , they don’t care if my dog runs out and gets hit by a car .they don’t want her inside either and on this heat 🤦🏻‍♂️ i swear i’m living and take my dog with me 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts