Buddy @buddy123
Why this day shouldnāt be the worst day of my lifeā¦but why it isā¦dad scolded me like i amn10 yr oldā¦he has never changedā¦i thought he is differentā¦i thought he will change the way he sees meā¦but he still has that faerful eyesā¦filled with angerā¦and i dont know how to get rid of itā¦the kind of fear i never had in my lifeā¦those eyes filled with lavaā¦like it want to burst meā¦wantdd to swallow me whole in one takeā¦i do fear fear but was something i never had seen in my 20 yr lifeā¦it was like i was still the child who still had a lot to learn from his fatherā¦when ur fucking 24 yr old and ur dad scolds u like he had that scream held in between his thoracic cavityā¦why he do thatā¦am i that worthless to himā¦do he even have smeone who he love abduntlyā¦ Without expecting smethingā¦what is my worth in his lifeā¦does he even thing i am a part of himā¦the way he said thingsā¦the way i never feel myself mpre isolated from this worldā¦is it like i never existed and i were i dont mean nothing to himā¦ I know i said some bad things it is jst to be play cool in front of himā¦that might have triggered himā¦he do have a monster insideā¦still growing and burst when it had that chanceā¦he think he own meā¦he thinks jst becoz he had genetically related to meā¦he had the ryt to ask and do things to meā¦my fsther i nevwr seen him apolozing he might evwn thinks of my family as a grp of waitress and waiters who are their to serve themā¦os this is all we r in front of him or jst i am making a big deal out of itā¦he never call to ask how i am amd voce verse i never counted on himā¦to be their for meā¦i have read 20 plus help book what does that tell meā¦i have seven months to make 65000 thousand rupess on my ownā¦i am ready to be in thia wolrd of moneyā¦to get paidā¦wellā¦
