Why my father is abuser? Why he shout & beats us everytime? Why can't he stop drinking alcohol? When my life will be okay? Why I can't live happily? Why? Why? Why? Why God hates me? Why? 

Try to save money and be independent then only u can be free

Child Abuse

It feels like the worst nightmare ever. My mother wanted to get a tattoo but my father insisted not to. But the second time she joked about it he did not deny. So she asked him to come home and make it. I was in shower. And the moment he arrived my father started shouting on both of them(my mother and tattoo artist) and they started arguing with my dad screaming on top of his lungs. I was praying in the washroom I could die at the moment. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t live among people who keep on shouting on each other all the time. And no one respects what the other says. He did not stop shouting he was even about to hit her he was so angry. I came out and tried to calm them down but they did not care they started shouting at me. I wish things could get better. My father then forced my mother to get that tattoo or he’ll kill himself. He felt so disrespected. And I feel done. I can’t take it anymore. 

Family

I hate my father. I hate my family too. 

Breakup

My dad bullies me. Verbal and emotional abuse.i tried to talk to him.  He dusts it off like it's nothing. 

Bullying

I hate when my dad tells me I do nothing all day.
I was eating in my living room with my sibling and my dad got home from work, you see I only see my dad past 8 PM and the whole day on Sundays. But no the first thing he said to me when he got home was "you should bathe the dogs...you never do anything but just laying on the bed with your phone". I was just eating peacefully with my sibling and was fucking tired of doing hw and was feeling down already. I only do my hw until 7 PM and after that, I rest and play on my phone. Even If I tell him that I do he doesn't care, and now my eyes are tearing because whatever I do they always have to complain about it. He doesn't know what I do all day yet he still says he does know. He isn't even here every day so why does he keep judging me...I feel exhausted from being part of this family.
They just keep giving me more reasons to end my life.

I feel sad. It's disappointing and heartbreaking to see your own family seperating. I can't fake anymore of having a perfect family. For me, my family has always been my top priority, no matter what. Friends are important but family comes first. But now it's hard to accept the situation and handle daily fights and arguments. 
Dad doesn't earn well. He tries and work really hard. Mom used to love my dad. Dad's frustration due to his own failure changed everything. I have seen my parents fighting and arguing since my childhood. But now it's extreme. They barely talk. They don't even sleep together. Mom lost feelings for him due to my dad's aggressive nature. I have a feeling that she is having an affair. My elder sister is very sure about it, but I don't want to accept the truth.
I love my dad, because he does nothing for himself. Whatever he does, he does for us, for his family. But not being able to earn well and facing failure, he has turned really aggressive. I have tried a lot to motivate him, but I guess it was never enough. I gave up because I couldn't take his anger. His "I am always right" attitude. Sometimes I really start hating him but then again when I see him sad, I feel like hugging him tight and I want to let him know that I love him.  I am closest to my mom. My sister hates her because of her affair I guess. I try to remind my sister about all the sacrifices my mom has done for her. But my sister's childhood has been pathetic. She has suffered a lot too and now all these family issues is common to her and she doesn't bother anymore. She is used to it. Everyone in the house (including me) cannot accept their fault. They argue and make excuses. I am tired of daily quarrels. It is said that talking and making proper conversations solves the problem but here no one is ready to accept that they did something wrong. They don't want to compromise. I am also one of them! Is it my mom's fault that she is having an affair? Maybe she got fed-up because of dad's aggressive nature and she lost feelings for him. That way, I cannot blame my mom. She is a human too. But where did her humanity go when dad needed my mom's support? She kept blaming him for not earning money. My dad hardly buys any good stuff for himself. He spends only for us. however, It's my dad's fault too because he was never ready to take my mom or anyone's suggestions at work.. he kept doing things which felt right to him. My mom used to support him but again she gave up.
Is this a very strong reason for my mom to stop loving my dad and having an affair? Being a wife she should have been loyal and she should support him.
Whose fault is it? How can I bring back my family together? I don't remember when was the last time we all laughed together. We go for family dinner. But I have always been embarrassed in every dining place because my parents fight like hooligans. Every 31st eve my family creates a nuisance in restaurants. This year my sister left the dining table and she kept crying. Money has always been a major issue for most of our fights.
When can we have a proper family dinner where we four can laugh together and enjoy food? How can we four stop blaming eachother for every small thing? I am the youngest and I can't see my family seperating. 

Abusive fathers belong to a special place in hell.

Anxiety

My dad gets irritated easily when I immediately give response to him then he yells at me, swears at me😔.

I grew up admiring my father, he was my hero, I always looked up to him, wanted to be like him. But now i hate him. His drinking habit has ruined the family. I cant see my mom cry every night anymore. I hate him so much. 

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