Why my father is abuser? Why he shout & beats us everytime? Why can't he stop drinking alcohol? When my life will be okay? Why I can't live happily? Why? Why? Why? Why God hates me? Why? 

Try to save money and be independent then only u can be free

Child Abuse

I hate living here. I often get told i am just an angsty teen or "no, he loves you!" But he doesnt. My father doesnt care about me. He keeps me fed and keeps a roof over my head but he doesnt care... why should he get brownie points for the literal legal requirements of being a parent, ill never understand. He is sexist and homopobic. He only talks to me whenever he needs something or whenever my grades are failing, he doesnt even bother pretedning to care about my interests, he ignores my mental health, he refuses to accept the way i dress (i prefer relatively masculine and gender neutral options) i feel as though i am talking to a brick wall when i mention these things. I am unwelcome and tired.  

Caregiver

Which person should i trust more.... The one who loves me unconditionally but when he is in anger he keeps a bat near to my skin who tells me to shut up and keeps ranting? He is my father. His anger overcomws the love and affects my mom and me. 

Anxiety

I am the worst daughter any dad would have ..... 
I just cannot forgive myself for this .... I just hate myself ... i hate myself....
Everyone is taking care of their parents but me ..... i ruined everything for my dad .... earlier i used to be his favorite child ... and now he tries and treat me in the similar way but each and every time i look at him i feel regret 

I think my mom is cheating on my dad for the 3rd time .. I need help to come out of this 

My Dad is a very nice person he never get's angry or hit me or say something to upset me BUT.....when he get's drunk he talk's alot and i don't like that about him , he change's to somebody else totally different.... a few day's ago he got angry at me and told me very rough word's....which i think it will remain in my heart forever....and because it's a family matter and very personal i can't share it with anyone , he even kicked me out of the house once and told me behind every sadness and badluck of the house is me....he even told me he wished i've never been born!....and hoped i'll never be happy all my life!. no matter how much i try to think that he was drunk....i can't forget about the words he told me, i haven't been a good kid to him to ...because whenever he get's drunk i get so angry!.....just wanted to share this because it's been bothering me so much.

Family

So I am really bad at physics and I need extra help. I have found a tutor but he is asking for greens 💵. My dad is an alcoholic and he thinks he can make people stay by paying them and buying them gifts and loaning them. Which leads to fights out of frustration with us and you know what the worst part is - he thinks our happiness is way less important than the outside world's. Even so much so that he fights with us when people ask for loans and he loans them a huge amount. And everyone uses him and I have to help him through his turmoil only to hear hurting words. I Don't ask for much. All is ask for is food shelter and love. And I am so scared to even ask him to hire that tutor because he might start drinking again and I would have to be tortured again. 

Life

Today when I was at my shop with my father that moment one  small child came start asking for water that boy was without slipper first I told no to him (because of coronavirus ) water when I saw is eys I change my mind , then I try to give water to him but my father told me no  with anger but I try and that child was crying for water , I told that child to wait for few minutes my father was going home but that child left , after few minutes later when my father left . I removed 10 rupees and try to find that child I saw him I told him to come with me I will by him water but hi don't responsed to me and went , I have everything but told I lost my  I know that is my fault I should have fighting with my father. I started hurting myself .I can't stop thinking about him what I have done 

Loss

My dad bullies me. Verbal and emotional abuse.i tried to talk to him.  He dusts it off like it's nothing. 

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