Relationships

What if I never get over him?

3am Thoughts

I miss my ex 💔 stupid reality

Breakup

I was taking with a guy, the conversation felt good and fluid. We are supposed to see each other on Thursday and now it’s been a day that he hasn’t response the last text I sent him. I feel he is not going to talk me again and I don’t know why or if
I did something wrong. Why can’t people just be direct and say how they feel? Now I’m constantly checking my phone waiting for that text from him. I’m feeling very anxious.

Overthinking

Just want to share something that I cannot with people i know.. I don’t know if i am looking for any advice or just wanting it out. I am a very happily married woman with 2 children until last year when i got back in touch with my ex. He was my first love, i loved him with all my heart and it was with him that I understood the meaning of love.. we both are from different religions.. i was ready to give up everything for him then but things didn’t work out and we parted ways. I married and moved to a different country and was never in touch with him. Last year i just received a message from him and things got back between us.. we started chatting long hours and hé showed me care and gave me all the attention in the world.. He made big promises that we can have our own little world without coinciding with our reality.. he is married too.. i went with the flow and I wouldn’t blame him because i kind of wanted it too.. slowly he got busier with work and hours reduced to minutes and now it sometimes is just a good morning and good night.. he is genuinely busy with work I know that but all i want is his attention and some time for me which I know is never going to happen.. I don’t know what i am after and what this holds for me.. I keep waiting for his message all day and night and he barely messages .. sometimes he does but there are always other things more important than me.. i am exhausted emotionally.. i am wrong I know that but i am helpless regarding my love for him.. i get anxiety if I think of losing him.. just feeling very sick of this situation i am in.. please don’t judge me I have no one to share my life situation with 

Anxiety

Not the worst day. 
The guy i like said he likes me back but doesn't want to get in a relationship, ( which i was okay with ) , hes been family since the start of time due to him being best of frnds with my cousin. Met him last night after buttload of avoiding him,(almost a month) since v both share the same frnd circle, everyone came along home with him, he suddenly started acting strange for no apparent reason (maybe a few things but not really reasons), and this is how things go everytime v meet ( literally everytime), i kept asking him all night to why hes being quite with there being no answer (silent treatment) he left after a small argument to which im all hurt and broken. This happens literally everytime v meet, somehow v get into an argument or things end messed up. Inspite of all the knowledge i carry about the situation i refuse to let him go and i think he does the same, (hopefully) the only thing is he doesn't open up maybe and show his emotions and  i react which makes me feel he doesn't care at all, we've had our ups and downs but after each argument i feel i loose him more so than ever. I try to let him go but i somehow again end up in the excat place i started. Help! It bothers me. 


Life

I am so tired of unrequited love. I have had so many of them that I probably lost count. There is this guy in my class. I had a crush on him for quite some time and if you could take a peek in mind you'll see how much of the relationship I have built for us. Hugs, kisses, cheek kisses, forehead ones, holding hands, hugging for long durations, going out for coffee, waking up together, dates to restaurants, lots long deep conversations, sharing controversial opinions and making up after fighting. Until I see him with other girls. I talk to guys in my class too but only for work related reasons, but for some reason it kinda feels like he is getting back at me like that. I don't know it just always does. And I get super jealous and hurt that I just can't bear it anymore. I Don't get him. One day he is all that stary and the other he is so secluded and the other day he is so chirpy. I get so irritated seeing him like this that I just can't take it.  I'm not saying something could happen between us, because I am never asking him out because I am scared of rejection, but like what the hell

One Sided Love

About a year ago, I met this guy who was and still is literally perfect. I began to have feelings for him. On Valentine's Day, we had been walking together with a couple mutual friends. He told me that he was super happy that he had a valentine. I cried and told my friends what had happened. The next day, I was over him. After that, I had very little to no feelings for him. I just cared about him as a friend. These past few weeks, we have a college class together and during the meetings, he would talk to me privately in the chat. I couldn't stop smiling and my heart would beat faster when we talked. Also this past week has been super stressful for me and my family. I talked to a close friend of mine about how I was feeling and he told me that I only have feelings for the guy again is because it is my way of coping with everything. I had been wondering whether I actually liked this guy again or if I was just lonely. I believe my friend when he says that I'm just lonely. I just don't know how to explain my feelings. Like, I am always thinking about him. I wish I could figure everything out. 

Crush

I hate myself soo much that I am still in love with my ex. He treated me soo bad. Its been 16 months since he broke up with me and he is still my priority. And I was never his priority. He would choose some random person he met a day before to spend his time with over me. And I still leave everything that I am doing if he wants me to do something for him. He doesn't give a fuck about me and still I am hopelessly in love with him. I still text him(desperate texts) and I get replies only sometimes. He texts me when he needs something from me. I met him almost after an year a few days ago because I wanted to see him and he met me because he wanted sex. I know he doesn't love me, and doesn't give a fuck about me and I know it's not good for me to be stuck with him but I just can't let him go. I was a person who never cried even in the extreme conditions and now this person makes me cry every time with his actions with his words and I feel so weak. I just wanna fucking move on and forget about him but I can't.  

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