Why does he never send me a message first? Why has it always to be me who sends him a message first?

I understand what you mean. 
But when I'm really someones friend  I care and worry about this person. And I text this person first, I'm not always waiting that this person textes me first but this guy is always waiting for me to do it first...

Friends are a family that we chose.
Real friends are worth that we care and worry about them in good AND in bad times. 
But is this guy a real friend? I'm not really sure...

Gajni....aamir khan....cant remember anything

Because he want to enjoy his life! 
He don't want troubles in life! 

Maybe he is Gajini. So he only realize to text you back when you text him first

3am Thoughts

What does it mean when a guy calls you dummy?

It turned out that he was replying to my chat, and it seemed he had forgotten my face a bit, and he asked for a photo, but I didn't just give it away, i don't give him. And after several chats he said bye. Bye doesn't seem like the right word, I want to talk to him but I don't know he want that or not because he said bye, maybe he's annoyed. Or maybe he never changed for the better and is still as annoying as ever.

Hey y'all.
I did something messy yesterday tho accidentally but very embarrassing for me. So, do suggest something if you can.
So, I have this online friend on and off, sweet and bitter and I talked with him on call 2 days ago after two months and was complaining I don't talk or share anything, tho he knows now I am like this and I need breaks. So, there is this distance bw us now. 

And Yesterday evening, when I was out holding my phone, due to  an accidental touch I called him, as it was on recent logs but I didn't know I called him. Hopefully, he didn't picked up but texted he is busy will call later and even in night he texted he would have called but I might be sleeping. But I didn't saw any msgs as I was busy and my notifications are off. What should I do now. I am very anxious about it. 

Anxiety

Hi everyone 
So how am I feeling? 
Actually I'm not feeling anything, I mean I should be feeling something. My boyfriend of 3 years ghosted me after telling me that he's coming to meet me. I should be feeling upset sad or anything but I don't really feel any emotions. I don't really share or discuss it with anybody. So I don't know how should I be feeling. Should I react or should I not? 
Should I go and ask him why did he do that or should I keep my self respect and stay away. 
It's been 5 months and I couldn't really find any closure. 
Before this relationship I was in a relationship where the guy cheated on me physically. I mean I started believing that there is something wrong with me. Even though I know that there is not as I try to understand there points and try to reflect, I'm ambitious and work for my own self, I really never ask for gifts or asked any favour, I'm quite independent. But even after all such bad things happen. Anyway, this is it for now as I'm not very loqacious. Hence, I can't really explain more than this. 
Thanks for reading 
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Breakup

Yrrrr i m feeling so bad.. i just don't want to do that don't want to go in this anxiety phase.. please help me😢😢
 i had met a guy through matrimonial site and fall for him in just a single conversation. Let's call him T. Because of some reason my parents decline for the marriage proposal but the T was really sweet. He was ready to do everything to be with me. I fought alot with my family, not getting married with him was my biggest Helplessness. While fighting for him i goan through a biggest anxiety phase. I was never able to let him go and he was also trying so hard. In such short span of time we were so close to each other emotionally. After some time because of lot of emotional pressure from family i stopped talking with T and said him to forget me. After some days i met a guy through family and they fixed my marriage, let him call S. Some how i prepare myself to be with S. He was not the person i want but i did so much emotional investment in him and tried to be his to be wife whole heartedly.but in a meanwhile in my heart T was the best person. But i manage to convince myself for S. But he was not the right person so he broke the fixed marriage on a silly fight. This thing brok me fully. 
Now everything thing is just going really well. I met a guy, let call him AA, i got engaged. Such a wonderful man he is fully mature, emotionally stable, hardworking, loving neture, giving me full freedom and everything. I am very happy with him. I was not ready emotionally for this and feeling that i m not able to give him all love and attention he deserve , which i had given to the previous guys. But slowly i was pushing myself towards him as he is such a sweetheart. 
But yesterday i saw something because of that i m feeling very very bad.
On a instgram i saw T is getting married, whatever the things he was saying for me he is saying for that girl. he got married with the girl yesterday night. 
I know feeling bad is wrong, T is happy and i should be happy seeing him happy. But why is this happening with me. What about AA, yrrrr i can't do this with him. I m the kind of loyal person who don't even want any other guy interruption even in my thoughts when i m with someone. But even trying so hard to not think i m thinking about T and like i could be at the place of that other girl. 
What to do?
Please help.
I m getting back in my baddest anxiety phase

Relationships

I am a mistress and I feel bad about this.I dont like this but the problem is that I am in a foreign country,without family and trying to work hard but the money that I make are not enough to have a decent living,so I need some support.I met that rich man and he is giving me money in exchange for intimacy.The problem here is that I dont like to sleep with him and I do this only because of my situation .I feel ashamed because I know I am not a bad person and if I wasnt in such a situation I would never do that ,and I am not trying to break him and his wife(actually I feel sorry for her) and I would never want such a man for me as a husband.Does the fact that I sleep with him because I need money and my money are not enough makes me a bad person?is this shameful?

Love

Sad
I love my bf a lot... But in the past few days he has been acting different... Doesn't want to talk to me for long... Whenever I call him(after working hrs) his phone is most of the time busy and then he receives the call and when I ask him if he is busy he denies but I can make out just keeps that other person on hold and talks to me for a while and then brings up something related to my schedule uk like oh did you do this? Or are you done with this and blah blah... So I act like I recall it I be like oh yeah I forgot about it and then I hung up the call but then when I call him within next half a min it's again busy... He never feels excited or never asks about anything, if I have got a new parcel and I send him the picture then he just leaves me on seen and over call as well never asks about it even if a month has passed by this behavior really annoys me. He is excited only when I visit place his and of course I get this vibe that oh he loves me only sex... But then he is so sweet at that time I start feeling no he is the one... But then again that sweet behavior is just for few days... I don't have any reason to point out what is going wrong because we connect over call everyday at night... We don't exchange msgs because he doesn't enjoying msging so much but that annoys me coz I feel disconnected for all day long and when we talk at night feels like pushing it... Like literally we have started having awkward silence while talking and earlier it was not like that 

Boyfriend

I broke up with my first love. I loved him so much that i don't wanna lose him anymore. But now he is already gone. I wanna move on...It's too much difficult to let him go. It's hurting me every day and night. 

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