Why do my head aches in the evening. From 6-7:30. It's so weird but it happens everyday. I can't be in my room around that time if I have been in room the whole day. It's like I need to go downstairs else my head will ache and I feel weird.

Is it just me or does this happen to others too?

3am Thoughts

Wrote something that has no title<3

Turning everybody's head as u walk
eyes on ur hips and rhythm in ur sway
hoping that they get that one chance
read to beg or ready to slay

Yeah how does it feel to be that pretty?

hands on ur waist , holding u tight
looking at you like a angel shining bright
tiny tender neck and big dark eyes
utmost attention surrounded by guys

Yeah how does it feel to be that pretty?

adorning clothes that fit you like a glove
acing the right shade of lipstick
pink cheeks and slender long fingers
no worries about being thick

yeah how does it feel to be that pretty?

perfect shade of hair that slide through your fingers
no extra muscle to hide from the mass
flat belly and skin as clear as a crystal
filling yourself with confidence and class

Yeah how does it feel to be that pretty?

No shame and no secrets
no fear of letting another soul touch you
no guilt and no regret
no agony and never feeling blue

Yeah how does it feel to be that pretty? 
         -S.G

How to quit overthinking? 

Overthinking

Kbhi socha kisi ne.. Ki yeh zindgi hme kyu smjdar bna rhi h? Mujhe esa khyaal aya ki agge apne bcho ko shii raah dikha ske. Unke mental health ka bhi dhyan rkh ske isliye.. Kyuki aj kl k most of the parents priority nhi smjhte mental health ko. Mujhe vibes aa rhi h agli generation ke sath kuch acha hoga kyuki hm lok parents honge. Hehe.. Random thought 🥴

Ek baat h lekin hmare parents logo ne zindgi jii too h.. Mujhe lgta itna stress nhi hoga tb... Kyoki technology nhi thi itni log door the bs Pyaar tha.. Hmara to tehs nehs h menttal sbhh kaa

Adulting

I am feeling alone. I am not having single girl friend also

Love

   I fucking hate myself so much, like literally everything I do just goes wrong. Cleaning, my school attention, just school in general, my attitude, just talking, socializing, doing my hair. I talk for like 2 minutes and I somehow make them mad or I have aggravated them. I hate the way I look, how I have always been fat, the way I sound, the way I walk, the shape of my body, my legs, my arms, my jaw, my double chin, the ways my eyes are shaped. I’m almost done with school and I have no fucking clue what to do with my life after it, I want to be successful but school is just not for me I know that for a fact. 

  I’m such a coward too because I don’t have the courage to tell anyone I have been sexual with my father (my biological father left when I have little) for years (since I was 10) and I absolutely hate it and he made me think it was normal, or maybe I’m just such a stupid person probably that’s why I’m failing at everything. You know I shouldn’t be so relieved that I got my period because it mean no sex and that I’m not pregnant. Not the first men to touch me thorough, one of my mom’s boyfriend touched me and I told her about it, she said “oh it’s his culture, it’s not his fault he always gets touchy when he’s drunk.” She didn’t even break up with him for that reason, they broke up because he cheated on her.

    I have no friends and I’m not joking when I go to school the only people I talk to is the teachers. I did have friends though but they all ghosted me and we don’t wave at each other when we see one another in the hallways. The only person I truly trust is my sister, she makes me laugh, and hugs me when we sees me crying, we tell each other everything, well I almost tell her everything…. But honestly I think she is the reason I’m alive today. 
   
    Now my life is not always sad, I do enjoy some things. I like to paint, I like fanfics, my favorite show is supernatural, I absolutely love the sky and the cold weather (fall). I love my cat his name is Tom, he was with me though everything he is there when I cry, when I sleep, when I’m happy, when I paint, and with me when I play Fortnite. I have no idea what I would do without him and have no I idea what to do when I lose him. 

Sorry this is so long but it’s me so yeah um I’m scared to post this….

Failure

Im a long distance relationship for 7yrs and now we break up cause he's in USA he wants to have a financialy stable. he wants to marry their so that he want fo be citizen their. He's now 1yr in US. We broke up lastweek no explanation.😭

Long Distance Relationship

I feel so lonely :((, we were at school a while ago practicing for this dance fest and I felt so out place because everyone was talking with one another while I'm there sitting and looking at them having fun. I feel like it's because I don't look pretty and I'm not thin either, I am pretty fat. I was trying to make small talk with some of them but some of them just kept looking at me while I talk to them and the others would talk back but it's like they're scared of me or something. I think it's bc many told me I look intimidating but trust me if you'll get to know me, I'm literally the sweetest person you'll ever meet. I try to look sweet and get used to opening my eyes a bit more just so I can look approachable bc I have this rbf. Anyways, that's it for my rant :DD, thank you for reading this :)) 

The one time I open up, the one time I decide to be vulnerable, I get played. Guess what I will never fricking do again. 

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