Why can't I have friends? I feel so lonely. I wanna talk to someone who care about me

Evn i assumed so... bt why we feel alone then

Then it might because you cares alot for people but they want you to live at their terms but when you dont do wht they expect they left you ... 
Buddy i can feel you and i really hope u found someone who cares the way you care ...

Everyone I talk to just think I'm pathetic 

Is there people do exist who genuinely cares.. i thought people become friends just for their benefits .

3am Thoughts

Tum khud se pyar Karo...Tum khud ke liye jio.....tumse jyada tumse pyar koi nahin kar sakte.....chahe duniya pura tumhare khilaf Ho jaaye Tum hamesha tumhare sath rahoge....tum kabhi khud Ko hurt mat karo..... tum bahut special Ho.....❤️❤️❤️

Self Love

Can not sleep due to overthinking 

My First thought

FOMO

I couldn't achieve the goals and targets I had set for myself.
After I graduated in 2019 I taught that I would work for 2 years and would save some money so that I could pursue my MBA. 

My family is financially very unstable so I often resort to asking money from home for any of my needs.

I got a very bad boss who used to abuse for little things in my first Job. The work environment was very toxic and not what I had expected. I couldn't leave the work place either because the company had a bond signed. 

Although I left it after 4 months.

The next company I worked with offered me a 3 month internship and promised to give a full time position after 3 months with a better package.

But as my 3 months of internship was nearing to end covid 19 came and the company did not give me a a full time position. I worked there for 6 months on stipend which was peanuts.

I couldn't save up anything. So I resorted to freelancing and terribly failed. 

My Family started to pressurize me to start prep for MBA since according to them I was wasting my time freelancing. 

Most of my friends have gone way ahead than me in life. Which bothers me alot. Makes me feel like I'm a failure.

Also, during all these years and being into depression almost my entire childhood I got diagnosed with Thyroid, cholestrol and suffered a shoulder injury everything back to back at a very young age. I'm losing out a lot of hair due to this and I'm losing my confidence with it. 

I tried various self help books like "The subtle art of not giving a fuck" 

"The chimp paradox" 

To manage my mind but nothing seems to work out. 

I'm failing terribly and don't know what must I do



Peer Pressure

Wasted time existence life.

Life

Do You believe in higher power?

Mindfulness

Idk why my fingers are always in a shivering state but now they are shivering more like I can't type properly. 
I always ignored it as maybe this is normal but I don't think this is normal I don't see people's hand shiver but mine without any reason. Why does it happen?

Physical Health

Brooklyn nine-nine is that show which continuosly just makes me laugh

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