Why am i a overthinker 
Why did i have to go through all the pain 
Anxiety and depression alone
I don't find anyone accepting me as a person they would love 
And the question arises will she accept ? 

I have been alone for past 6 years 
And i am only 18 years old 
I have no friends 
No one to talk about my day 
And i have really fallen for her

Mhhmmm..... Serious matter 🙂 
I think bahar nikloge ghar se logo se baat kroge too uhh will definitely get new frnds nd aaj kl too frnds bnana bhut hi easy hai 

Duniya me akele aaye hai aur akele hi jaana pdega 😌

Love

I am feeling really sad and hurtful. I am feeling terrible how people around us are not sensitized enough towards mental health issues. Today was a very bad day.  Today i saw, when someone's ass is on line they can steep low in unimaginable ways.  Without even a single thought about the hurt/mental trauma they might be causing to the other person. I am surprised to see how it doesn't even effect them a single bit. I sometimes wonder how do these people even sleep at night. What is their self talk? How do they even convince themselves otherwise about the wrong they did to the other person. 

Career

I'm 19 right now. 
In this small but tough journey I understood one thing
"No one is too hard to love, Nothing is too valuable to leave behind."

3am Thoughts

i feel like i wanna cry i’ve done my gcses and i’ve done pretty well considering i was struggling with mental health and all there was so much family shit that happned in the middle and i got good results 
despite this none of my family issues are being solved and i honeslty am losing motivation to live 
i don’t have much hope for sixth form since i didn’t apply to the top ones and am just going to mid ones i don’t have any freinds right now it seems all my freinds just leave and i don’t know i feel really alone i can’t talk to my parents i’m not close with my dad and my mums just not it right now we don’t get along and she just makes everything about her i don’t have any other family i don’t know what to do it’s like i don’t wanna die but i do it feels like nothings going to change and i don’t know i don’t wanna  live 

Reality hitting I'll never have that sweet happy family i dreamed of where my mom, dad and i will be all together lovingly. 

Family

There's a blessing in the breaking... 

how does it feel when uh getback with ur ex and somehow uh dont knw wyf will happen next,,
the constant fear oflosing them again is so damn painfull that sometimes i want to quit this relation but i dont have the courage to do so bcz of the love i have for him..

Relationships

I want to prepare with all dedication for upsc for one year.will it be fruitful or not?

Life

My dad wont want me on here.

Heres my pathetic story:
When I was nine, my mom was pregnant with my little brother.  She was about 7 months along when I saw her walking by our school, which isn't normal since we lived way far away.  I asked her what she was doing and she said she just was walking by and wanted to pick me up.  I was confused.  She must have had pregnant brain.  So we called an Uber and right as we were turning the bend by my house, the driver, inexperienced as heck, swerved the wheel too hard.  We landed in a creek.  
My mother and the Uber driver died in the ambulances.  I was okay, but it effected my ideas of how to spell.  I got over that with a lot of tutoring, but that's beside the point.  I had a friend who we'll call Mary after my mother.  She had no idea about my life.  She thought I was straight, but I'm bi, and I was suffering a crush on her.  She had no idea my mom died for a year.  I just told her she got a divorce with my dad and moved to the other side of the United States.  
My whole life changed when I met this girl named Ana.  She was weird, so weird.  She ran around screaming at the top of her lungs.  Oh my GOD, SHE WAS SO LOUD!!  She was wild!  She had been going to a different school for gifted kids, but she begged her grandmother (her mom had her when she was seventeen, so she lived with her grandma) to let her join her best friend Loki at his school.  That was my school.  I hadn't noticed Loki until Ana hung out with him.  They were inseperable, and I still don't know why.  But anyway, they formed this friend group and the group was tied together by some invisible force.  

One time, I was so desperate to fit in, I started dating this guy named Vincent who was really sketchy and sus.  I hated him, but he had this thing for me.  We  were only ten, too young to date anyway, but I only liked Mary.  She was the queen of my tower.  Always would be because I love her.  And she loved me too.  But I learned that it was in different ways.
Ana built up my courage to ask her to date me.  The only reason I trusted Ana now was because we were playing Soin The Bottle at Mary's cousin's house, and her cousin's boyfriend wouldn't let go of Mary.  Then Ana ran through the door and totally destroyed him right after she had broke her skull open on concrete.  She was pretty cool.  Anyway, I asked Mary, and she freaked and left.  The next day, she told me we couldn't be friends anymore.  We hugged.  That was the last time I talked to her.

After that, the only decent person in my family is my little brother.  My dad is okay sometimes, but he got really sensitive and emotional when my mother died.  I only have one friend left at the moment, and she's amazing.  I won't even mention her name, but she is just...I love her too.  I refuse to tell her after what happened with Mary, but now I'm an emotional wreck.  I still write letters to my mom about how my day went!  This is so stupid!  I'm an idiot!

Why should I bore you with my problems?  I'm just a burden on society, so I have no place here.

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