While selecting the category for this post, I didn’t even know what to select. The guy I’m talking about isn’t just a crush or someone I’ve liked for a brief period of time. It’s been a year. I’ve been stuck on this one person and it kills me to even think about this. I know he never had feelings for me and idky I was still so in love with him. We hooked up too. Once. That’s the most fucked up part about this stupid generation. Ughhhhhhhh. You never know wtf the other person wants or feels or anything. Everything is so vague. And then you’re friends with them. And then you pretend as if everything is normal. As if nothint happened. Fucking great. I have been trying to get over him since so so long, I was ALMOST there. I was almost over him BUT oh how guys realise this and try to come back into your life. I am busy in my life, I don’t have time for this and there are times when I completely forget about him BUT there comes some moments, some days when I just can’t stop thinking about him. Even writing about this makes me feel weak. I am not this person, I don’t want to be this person. I can’t do this. I can’t feel weak or vulnerable for him. He is not right for me anyway, I know he isn’t good for me AT ALL. I still don’t know why I’m so stuck on him.
I relate to this so much, I went through the exact same situation recently. I ended up catching feelings for my best friend, and we even hooked up. The worst part was that I knew he just didn’t like me in that way, and I was the one who had to act normally. But, what helped me out of that situation was, I realised that it was just a crush. The more I thought about it, the more it consumed me. You can’t really heal a wound if you keep touching it. I convinced myself I didn’t ‘need’ him, which was right. A lot of guys will come and go in your life, but no guy is worth all your time and attention. It’s okay to fall to a point where you feel weak, because these make you realise that you never should’ve made him such a priority for you. Focus on yourself and your growth, and things will fall back into place. You’re doing a great job, keep going. Good luck! :)
Yes i know i dont need him and he is not worth my time and attention at all. But it’s still tough. and i hate feeling this weak. But you’re right, I need to realise that there is no point making him a priority. Focusing on myself. Thankyou xx