Whenever something bad happens why do we always say "why me?" Instead of saying yes i can overcome this no matter how much effort it takes. 

Avleen Kaur

Compassion

सब कुछ सही है मगर कुछ सही नहीं है 🤌🏻

Exhausted

Hii guys, good evening

Intro

I’m always feelings lonely a lot lately because I always think back to my ex gf last year that I clearly messed up on myself and I think about everyday and it hurts me everytime that it was my fault I made a mistake and yet I still love her so much and all I wanna do is see that smile of hers once again that I made her happy but now we don’t even talk to eachother or look at eachother when we’re around eachother and it hurts everytime because all I see is her beauty and what we we’re together and I would do anything to get that back and I’m just having trouble dealing with it cause I wanna fight for her but I just know she doesn’t wnat anything to do with me especially cause now we’re going separate ways with her going to college and it just breaks my heart everyday I think about it

Breakup

Not me enjoying my sick days like they are holidays 

3am Thoughts

2022 has been a disastrous rollercoaster so far. I'm sorry if this turns into a long rant.

The year started with anxieties from the shortcomings of my relationship, inability to move forward in my career, dad's retirement coming up and overall income at home reducing by almost 70%. I didn't have a single clue on what needed immediate attention because all of these things did. Life was falling apart faster than i could put any of them together.
Relationship used to be a series of fights every alternate day mostly due to me being unable to dedicate enough time to my ex-partner. By the mid of this year, 3 people who were very close to me departed to heavenly abode at quick succession. Things didn't get any better after that. 

I felt it was unfair of me to drag my partner into this web of mess. She didn't deserve that. I wasn't sure if or when i would recover from all this and didn't want to make her wait in the hopes of false promises. Hence, decided to call the relationship off with a heavy heart. 

I've spent the past 2 months contemplating and reflecting upon what's going on and how i can start to deal with all these piled up problems and situations. Have been giving myself some, if not any credit for making it through this year but some of those are still work in progress. Earlier, positive vibes used to come to me effortlessly, but now it feels like positivity is some miniscule object that i am constantly in search of but unable to find anywhere. I am strongly hoping to sort out all the troubles of this year by December and start fresh with 2023.

So today a teacher was talking about mental health so after she was done I asked her if she had tips for family problems and she asked me of what kind and I then replied about toxic family and she started to ask me if I need help and I agreed and told her that my grandma touched me and she was shocked, so before leaving she asked me if I wanted her to inform the office about that and I replied that I don't think that this will change something. So after, a teacher from the office came, she told me to not be afraid of her and that she won't judge me, she's a sociology teacher so I can talk to her, then after telling her about my situation she told me if I wanted to take this far, to take actions and I then agreed even if she asked me if I was sure, well now I'm gonna wait... I'm a bit afraid because of my family, I want to get out of this and I seriously need help since they're affecting my mental health so much that I can't even focus on my studies. I cry everyday just because of them, but can anyone give me some courage to not be afraid? please I really need it, I'm so afraid of the consequences, I want something to change and I've tried to do my best a lot of time but no one did something so now I hope that I will be in peace one day

Life

i really don’t want to get out of bed i just want to sleep for a couple of days

Other

Ok...so here goes ..my ex was cheating on me...so i wanted to take revenge on her..so i kissed her younger sis who used to have HUGE crush on me...since she was 18... Am i a bad guy... obviously we didn't just kiss 👉👈

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