When your train crush is crushing back but you remembered you have strict parents 🤷🏾🥺🤣🤌🦋 
Maybe he understands 🥺🥺



3am Thoughts

I Don't want to give up. 

     Find of love-haiku                                                     What I feel is now loneliness,                       lot i am feel about love!                                is here a one who can take that position:     a one who can give me the taste of that fond. _by S.k owez                                                                   

Love

Whenever i take a day off from work ( sunday) I don't know why i feel shit the whole day...i always feel like I don't deserve a day off  

Anxiety

Suddenly out of nowhere I also feel lots of anger.. Hurt.. So much of disgust for both my biological parents.. Especially my father
My mother too. For causing massive hurt but also lacking extreme accountability and lacking empathh
. Being total narc even until recently. They have caused me so so much of pain n trauma and my heart and soul ache till date. I wish looking for jobs online.. Just when a flying thought came.. And flashbacks of his behavior (my dad's) and one denial leading to another.. And I'm like damn!!! Will call up a friend.. And even feel better.. Soon hopefully!!!! I'll make efforts like calling a friend.. Rveisitngg happy memories n try to get out of these real loop of thought s based on reality. 


Child Abuse

I constantly feel like iam incapable of doing anything….earlier i had people around me who trusted me who motivated me always which kinda kept me going ahead in life but now i dont and i cant go back to those people for some reason or the other…. Iam in damn need of some positivity and a person who could say they belive that i will do some good to my life and to others as well!!!but it seems like the person i got married to cant understand this and cant make me feel special enough for his own reasons…iam in a big mess i cant get out of

Depression

looking to connect with some new frens here :)

Friends

14 years into a relationship… 6 years into marriage… never felt this helpless… i knw i am a strong woman… but everyday i pick myself up and start afresh in the hope dat my hubby would start valuing me…pandemic has changed him… he is not the one i used to love… i die everyday… my wet pillows know the pain… i dnt want any help… just wanna vent my emotions so i feel light…

My own thought: 
There are 4 hormones: Dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin, endorphin which are responsible for happines. 
So for a healthy relationship instead of depending on your partner for these hormones, to get secreted, rely on your activities. It is important for both the partners to progress in some way( it need not to be academic always) as when one remain devoid or scarce of these for longer duration it's become obvious that he/she will rely on his/her partner to feel good and when this method fails the threat of fights lurks concluding to breakups. And if no, then, they search for happines outside and they get it too. But when one objects with this method, he/she often misjudge or ill-comprehend this objection. 
The world outside will throw obstacles in the form of attractive things or something abstract. The stronger the spirit of the athletes, the longer they will run.


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