When you are happy being lonely is a bliss but when you are sad loneliness kills..really tired of waiting for willing to have that special one...

Sometimes you do feel the urge to share and create special moments which can't being done alone.

Dont wait for that special one be yoir own special one

Confusion

I got so emotional after meeting my ex after 2 years of breakup nd it's hitting so badlyy nd I tried talking to him. He is so kind to me. We get into a agreement, we support each other whenever it needs
I never took him out of my mind but I don't want  relation anymore nd I want to know whether I'm doing right nd it's giving me peace now 
The reason behind my breakup is my family nd my fear for stereotypes

Frustration

Well, there are a couple of things I am feeling right now. 
So today I almost cried in front of my English teacher during my board practical because the topic I chose was really what is happening right now. 
I wish to have helicopter parents again, and the not ones who need to be taken care of. One of them is a drunk and the other has SSD. I wish to have that same warmth and stability my friends in their functional family have. I was in a fight with myself - "should I do it?" "Nah! too personal to share" and then I finally thought to myself "why not? It's okay to not hide your emotions anymore. You are not to blame for what is happening? You deserve to speak your truth and the origin of the topic" 
So I said as to how and what was happening and how it had relevance to my English topic. 
Felt weird to voice it out but oh well! 
Another thing, I have physics board practical tomorrow and I am super scared. 
Also, one of my favourite cousins is leaving because she needs to be back home. my heart dropped when she said she has to go because she has been the only one who listened to my political and emotional views. Heck, my own sister blocks me out when I try to talk to her. So yeah, there's a lot 

Anxiety

Can anyone suggest me where can i watch lgbt hindi webseries for free.. I am looking for that new Mombian series ?

Is it TRUE that real ones never leave?

Relationships

Any bangtan fan who read fanfics? 
Does certain things effect you? 

I AM VERY HURT AND SAD ..😔
My bestie and her family shifted to another city a month ago..she is  like my real sister..we used to  stay together almost the whole day.. just sleeping different..that also was same on weekends..we are bestfriends since 6 yrs..we used to do everything together..like attending online classes together..as we lived in same street it was easy going to each other's house.. from breakfast to dinner to watching endless Netflix shows to listening our favourite songs..to twinning clothes almost everyday..from our own patch ups to break-ups.her parents treated me like their daughter...and same did mine we are like twin sisters..soul sister
But now she just changed and is just avoiding me..
She doesn't reply my texts for hours..we decided to talk everyday which came down to once a week that too for max 20 minutes.. even she's online she doesn't reply on whatsapp or insta..once we were talking and she told she needs to prepare for her exams and hangs up.. after half an hour I saw her snaps hanging out with new  friends...she also removed me from her close friend list.she is ignoring me..I feel so hurt...I even asked many times but she just told that I am misunderstanding or she used to change topics..I cried several times...I don't have any friend except her.. I feel really really sad..today was our 6th friendship anniversary..we remembered it because her mom clicked a pic on first day of her school and when we met  and she wrote the date on it..she forgot it..I can't believe it.even one of our close friend remembered it.we celebrate it every year...but today she went on her new friend's birthday party..
I AM HURT 😭😭😢😢

3am Thoughts

So the thing I've been feeling these days is nothing...I've realized that even when the closest person had left me...it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would...I do found myself thinking about them so often but I don't want them back...I'm okay being alone it hurts less...also they've left me numb...in reality I'm rarely feeling anything...I'm not  able to cry or laugh...I feel these emotions only when I read books or watch series...only then I found myself crying over their problems amd traumas...idk what's happening with me ahh

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