When will this anger go ???? Why am i like this ... So much toxic

Are bro har ek cheez ka aara khudpe bhi bhot aara n bakiyo pe bhi

Ur right thats the thing .... Its always been the case with me for some reason i just cant forgive like lets say somethings bothering me . I wont forget n then ill just dump my anger on everyone .....

Its a long story do u wanna cannect and talk on it ?

Ohh ur a girl too it would be very helpful to know a girls perspective

3am Thoughts

Anger kills happiness, so what?

I am having anger issues. And that is leading me arguing and fighting with my family. I don't like it but i can't help it small things or small comments about me make me super angry like my head would explode if i don't say anything back. What should i do?

Anger Issues

Why do I always loose it in the moment and take out all my anger on someone who deserve all the softness 

Panic Disorder

I feel like playing guitar to control my anger 

Not angry, not mad, not bitter. I just see things clearly now. I am happy about that.

I've never been this angry in my life before.
I'm not a person who gets angry easily and when I do, I let it go without attachments and forget about it. This time is very different... is a type of anger that when I remember it, I feel my whole body turning in fire starting from my chest or specifically my heart. I don't feel that it consumes me or it fogs my mind, it gives me so much of a punch of adrenaline that is scary how determined I am when I feel it.
At first when I noticed this reaction on myself I was pretty much caught by surprise not only by the feeling but also how strong I was about it comparing to other times. Everytime I felt angry before, when I was feeling it or once I calmed down I felt deeply sadness and couldn't help but cry of anger and sadness. Feeling pure anger, being able to experience something I didn't know I could made me amend things with myself and the thought I was numbing my feelings and not feeling enough therefore not being sufficiently human.
This is by no means glorifying my anger or anger itself whatsoever. Others feelings and experiences can make me feel human aswell. I know I have to fix this and I can't stay like this, I have to face on the problems I have ahead. I just want to appreciate and let it out in the world, at least once, about how I'm feeling and it's effect on me. And I believe this makes me calm my anger too. Just the pure determination and the lack of regret, shame and disappointment about Feeling is important to me.
The past years and remarkably these past two months I've been dissipating out the fog in my mind that have been following me for years and solving all my internal problems.
 I've been getting clarity. 
I believe this is the reason for my sudden determination alongside with all my self-grow and the desire of standing up for myself, being emotionally and physically independent and the allowance to feel and express it clearly.
Experiencing this was an experience indeed. Even with all this said, I still have mixed feelings about it. I still don't like getting angry and feeling this raw, pure energy emotion because I'm not used to it. Thankfully I think I can handle it better than before which sounds contradictory when feeling it so intensly should do the opposite... yet it makes me determined and able to compose myself to channelize it in the most rational and healthy way possible.

This was going to be more of a personal rambling post like all the others I writed here, just me spitting a list about current situations + all the things that (I) accumulated and makes me angry lately hahah turns out I'm feeling at peace with this, laying down my thoughts in a more tangible way. 
The anger is not gone, of course, is a matter it and I will handle as time goes by and who knows what will feed it, if it will burn down or something will cool it off. Putting it out and dissecting myself piece by piece understanding everything better makes me put at ease, even small or the most mundane and every-day-life things such as anger itself.

Life

Idk what happens to me I try a lot to control my temper but couldn't and this only happens when someone pokes me ahhhgg I hate someone who pokes me and I literally can't resist my anger idk what to do 

Im so sad because i lost my temper and misunderstood someone and later felt very bad for my behaviour...everytime i try to stay calm and try not to respond for a situation but i am loosing my control due to my short temper....

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