When I opened his insta without his notice I found he's cheating on me which he isn't feeling guilt... He's completely fine he's isn't bothered about this relationship but y am I the only one who is struggling..... I feel so anxious when my mind strikes with a thought that he's no more interested in me and he's ok letting me go 😣.... I love him so much but I don't want him..... I want to move on I'm trying but I feel pain.😣.... I feel something crushing my heart..... Any suggestions to reduce the pain.... I just don't want to care at all... He lost me but it's hurting me.... I really wanted to forget everything, this pain, those memories every single thing

Move on. That's the only thing. Not necessarily moving on with any other person, but moving on with your life and creating the life you want. Rather than placing your happiness and peace in some douchebags.

Anxiety

Iam in very big confusion. My parents has fixed one allaince for me for marriage. But i just broke up with my bf a month ago. He used to get money from people for debt but will barely return them money. Thats the reason for our break up. But except money thing, he used to treat me better and I was always free in that relationship without any barriers. Iam having oscillation between fiance and my bf. I feel like i still have feelings for my bf and whenever i see him I feel like to hug him. Also my fiance is also good. He is having basic good qualities. Also i feel like no one will marry my bf if iam not marrying him as he has bad name in the city because of money problem. Without money thing he is a very good guy. Please help me to sort it out. Im tired of crying

Is that possible for your ex can be your friend?

For me no, how about you? Please comment your opinions 

Breakup

Hii
The thing is my ex and I broke up and I lent him some money and asked him to return me back he did payback to me but I do not want money because when we were in relationship he did all the spending mostly so I wanna pay my half for that .is it okay to do so as I do not want any favours from him 

Relationships

so I had friends with benefits with one of my greatest friend we had if you watch misunderstanding and fight because of one of his friend and I was somewhere at fault too.so after that he has stopped talking to me and has been ignoring me he ignores my presence as if I have vanished from this whole world. This started affecting me I was getting affected too much I was feeling as a Someone is squeezing my heart . So I had a conversation with him and I requested him not to ignore my presence as its affecting me very badly. so he agreed to it we had a DEAL that he will not ignore my presents but neither will I talk to him nor will he talk to me . but whenever we see each other or pass by he'll just give a smile that's it. I had tagged this whole affecting thing because of his ignorance as due to emotional attachment but sometimes I feel is it just an emotional attachment or is it something more do I feel something more   guys I'm dying out of confusion someone help me solve this out and clear my confusion

Confusion

Let me know your thoughts 

I don’t understand myself
I have very high expectations of everything when other people disappoint me i kept it all to myself.after getting in relationships my bf would try everything to make me happy but having high expectations I would disappoint him with my expression and my reply .He used to love me and show lots of effort in our relationship.I used to fight in small things.I would always ask to breakup with him but he would do everything to protect our relationship.He had anger issue and i also had anger issues not severe.then whenever i used to get angry to him and hurt him saying bad things he started biting me but would apologize.And I wanted to breakup with him even more.I wasn’t really love with him at that time ,I used to judge him based on looks.Sometimes h used to look good and sometimes not.He even blackmailed
 me to protect our relationship.Then after some time I made him to promise not to be violent with me and I won’t fight eveyday.Then my love for him started growing.But i had lots of mood swings, fight in small things.He gots lots of busy in work.Then we had long distance relationship.He never cheated on me and I never cheated on him.We both had trust for each other.But we had fight for small things started by me because I wanted him to give me more time,i wanted his attention,love,care.And he has stopped giving efforts in our relationship.He would block me whenever I tried to fight and  and have a conversation with him.In the past he used to beg me me to reunite but nowadays it’s me .We breakup like about 100th of time .We both know we are not good for each other but I can’t let go of him.We recently had our breakup yesterday but I can’t let go of him

We used to talk a lot
Every day 
On text, On calls for hours
He was my only friend back then , only online friend, I started to fall for him , like him, I had feelings for him
As the lockdown ended his college resumed, our conversations became shorter, he got new friends he posts a lot snaps and stories with his friends , a lot of girls going out and hanging out and he tells me he's always busy and occupied in studies
He changed, replied after 4 hours
Now we don't even talk once a week
It feels like our friendship never existed
I'm hurt and sad and used because he used me to overcome his ex and his problems
I'm not expecting anything from him anymore just that I'm just very bad
I hope he's happy by doing whatever he is..

Friends

When my relationship started I didn’t know that the guy i was dating was already in another relationship. But after I found out he chose me over her (they were together for 2yrs) I didn’t feel right. I still continued to be with him as I did have feelings for him.. with time he changed and loves me soo much. He does everything a girl could ask for. He’s super caring but a little less understanding but I don’t blame him cause he comes from a background of pple with conservative mentality. 
So my point here is that sometimes I’m not able to forget what he did to me in those first 4 months of our relationship. Things were hidden from me, he used to go see her almost everyday , they were in a physical relationship then as well, he texted him ILY and i only want you when I was there 😞 ... he gave me an explanation for his texts and said **she would’ve cut her wrist etc etc just coz of that i kept on dealing with her bullshit** idk what’s the truth and i never will ! He had her pictures in his phone even after they broke up and he “chose” me. I made him delete those, he didn’t delete them himself. Things got toxic in our first year together. Now it’s been 2 years with him and the though of the past still occurs and I can’t even talk to him cause he’ll say “tu kbhi nhi bhul skti kya ?! Mai kitna bhi kuchh karlu tere liye kitna hi pyaar krlu firbhi nhi bhul skti ?” 

Frustration

I overthink a lot becz of my past
Pichle realtion ki wajah se there is a lot of trust issues now
Sab sahi chl raha tha he is very gud n caring person and suddenly change he totally change I knw the reason behind this my Impatient , immaturity and childish behaviour .now he doesn’t talk to me nicely usually avoid me …I m not his priority anymore always I ask a stupid question make him upset n irritated becz of my overthinking or past trust issue .due to this suddenly I have lost my trust from him.i always thinking thay he might be cheat on me or blahhh n then my behaviour made him irritated I dnt want to loose him I really love him I want him back like we were .

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