What to do when you find your friends distancing from you and realise they don't even care 

Friends

I have been quite upset, I am a teenager, 19 years old. I recently started college and I mean all my friends have this thriving social life, relationships, virtual dates, and I literally don't, I mean, these past few days I have been avoiding talking to them because they talk about how happening their lives are so happening. Plus what even am I going to say to them? That don't tell me how happening your lives are and mine isn't. And I mean, I have always been a hopeless romantic kind of a person, a person who believes in love even after failing horribly, and day by day that hope, that faith, it keeps reducing gradually. I mean, I am 19, as I said, and I have never been in a relationship and the worse part is that I am a guy who has always been super respectful to women, and I know that is the bare minimum but then I see girls chasing around those assholes who are nothing but disrespectful and it's pointless. Does kindness mean nothing in this world anymore???? 
To a third person reading this, it might seem like a 19 year old's rant because he hasn't had any action in life. But it is so much more than that, it's the fact that I see no hopes or no possible scenario in the future where I see someone falling in love with me and that's just it. It makes me give up on life, to the point where I find myself in my bathroom sitting and crying or sitting and staring at the ceiling. Sometimes I feel like deleting all my social media, instagram, Facebook, Twitter, WhatsApp, throw away my sim, burn my phone and all my documents and just go off the grid. No one cares anyway if something were to happen to me, lmaoo. 

Teenagers

Just Ranting
Like what you guys do of keeping so many friends? Like many. Even close ones. 
When I had one friend that too online just we didn't see each other, but they were coming so closer, want to keep you in their life, like they care, but not really, it hurt me, I had to leave but also it hurts I don't have anyone, but they have many close friends. Tho don't care about me, what's that selfish reason then?

Acquaintance

as i was chasing my dreams and the things i like i feel so left out around my friends and they don't even seem to care about it like, even if we are talking in group calls or if i join in there gathering i am total outsider with them i don't understand there saying and i am just staring them i am listening but my mind regret for going out with them i just want somebody to suggest me a solution for this all?

It's funny how a girl like me, who always loved to make new friends, social girl suddenly turn into an antisocial girl. 
Now i don't even wanna go out of my room anymore. 
I was a girl who never thought what other's think of me, but when i enter college just because of my friend who judge me everytime i do something, made me feel insecure about everything i do. And now my overthinking is killing me inside😔
What to do? I can't even unfriend them coz they are the only one who talk to me in entire college.😓



Depression

sad feelings today , i mean i really kinda feel like no one really wants to talk to me in my college or class and just sort of ganged up against me making me feel guilty and everytime i try to overcome this , they show me like they are a better grp "without me" and this girl who is a friend(crush) of me is also behaving like she doesn't wants to talk to me and reduced the amount of chatting with me...please help😔

Overthinking

I feel left out from friends. What to do?

3am Thoughts

i have so much friend issues, at starting i was very helpful and easy to communicate even if someone was fighting i say hit me what you want to say just say it to me just don’t fight please.For sometime it was good but after sometime they used me make fun of me ,next year those friends get less and we made a group 2 of them still use me for there work,next year whole class get one as a unity and help each other but also that time they use me for hiding something for telling lie to somebody they choose there boyfriend and not me who always help them, they always get shy when they were with there bf and take me with them and even there bf says "you are spoiling over privacy"it was not my mistake i said to them no but still,next year when i get fail in class and they all passed they forget me they ignore me i realize finally they were snakes betrayed me use me,but still in my class there was 1 who was my friend we became BFF and after sometime 1 get in our class not it became TRIO WE WERE SO HAPPY,enjoying away from those betrayers but next year covid-19 year started 1 one of them started talking less i don’t know why we even get 3-4 fights but i still control i tried but she never she thought when school will open every thing will be normal but its not anymore it was not like when it was in starting next year again still covid 1 was left we were getting more close but she is like when she need me she talks to me or every second she wants to talk to me every time those old Qs lunch?what?morning?get up? sometime i think i’m needy greedy who needs perfect and blaming everybody,not myself but i don’t know who is right and whose is not but yeah for 1st class to know i still got a friend who is still with me once i don’t talk to her that much but i always cared and she too we always ask each other and now she is with me we talk every hour. i know not every friend is for always and like you just i need a friend who will with me for long.

Do you know why people are soo fake...
I hate it too much ...
No one is left real at this earth.. 

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