What to do if I am so hateful that every little word can make me angry that I want to kill. But I am so weak and can’t do that.
I know that there is something wrong with me but I can’t stop thinking like this and it is killing me from the inside.
Yeah but we both need to fix it. Through it is not as easy as it appears.
Fuck, I think living is a pain. I would want to just die so I can stop thinking at all. But I don’t want to. Don’t know why. Probably afraid.
But I won’t have to care about anything.
Nobody will be able to hurt me and I won’t have to think about it anymore.
Something strange happed just now. I don’t know why but it got hard to breathe. Was it panic attack ? Never happen before.
Thank you I don’t know why but talking to you made me feel a little better.
I will try to come back to how I am always.
