Happy

i was a neglected child and when my uncle listened to me and my problems and my rant about my parents, i was happy . but he started flirting and making me uncomfortable, suggesting i should be a prostitute that i should show him my 🐱 . i was scared to tell my dad right away bc we got in a fight earlier and my uncle knew to much ... well few months pasts and i decided to tell my father about my uncles behavior.. he made jokes “ calling my uncle a friend “ but after all he confronted my uncle.. and so he could save himself.. he told my dad everything, how i’m trans how i’m bisexual and that i want to move and that i don’t care ... he also told he’s wife which she was upset that he talked that way to me BUT. she said that i looked at her .. like a man ... like a steak 🤦🏻‍♂️( we went shopping and i was awkward i wanted to be nice and supportive) and complimented her .. is nothing wrong with that .. then she gone on how i played with my 8 year old cousin in a weird way .. just bc i was tickling her or scaring her ... i’m not close to kids , i just wanted to seem friendly and be nice and joyful... was i supposed to ignore her completely? they said so many horrible things just to save my uncle... i’m really done with this family... they know i want to move and i don’t care how hard it will be , i’m taking my dog and belongings with me and i’m going, i feel so sick and disgusted..

Failure

I need the people with bad energy to leave my life

Hope

I need a suggestion.. i had a breakup withmy bf..and after few days i read his insta chat with his friend.. my bf was asking him for girls.. 

Now he wants to come back.. he is saying.. situation was not good that's why i did it but i only love you.. 

So i want to ask all the boys here is this real??

Boyfriend

Scars are beautiful, isn't it? 


3am Thoughts

I feel like I've lost the bond I had with my mom once. We were the closest anyone could ever be. I was the closest to her out of her three children. My father was abusive, violent and unavailable emotionally and a Casanova. He has several relationships in the past with several women and still does, probably. He made my mother's life miserable but she put up with him to raise us. I'm a 21 yo and my my siblings are 19 and 15. He wasn't even a very good father. We aren't on talking terms as of now because of the silliest thing which makes no sense but that's not the point right now. A couple years back my mother met this man and really connected with him. She asked for my permission to have a relationship with him and I felt like she deserved it. She deserved someone to appreciate her and to fill that gap of a partner in her life. So I encouraged her to go ahead and be friends with him. That man is married and has two kids. I always warned my mom to never meddle in his family and be that woman because she knows how if felt to be on the receiving end. Anyway, one thing led to another and she became really close with that person AND somehow his family. The family doesn't know about their relationship. Anyway, shortly after she got close with him, she changed. I mean, the way she talked or behaved or the things she said or did or the way she made decisions, completely changed. She started consulting everything with him before making any decisions. Soon he got in on all our life decisions and she even made me talk to him. Initially it was fine but he started meddling too much in our personal life problems. Gradually he started making sexual jokes with me and I was uncomfortable but I didn't say anything because my mom was so smitten by him. It wasn't late before he started making sexual remarks about my body and how sexy I am or my curves or asking me about my sex life with my boyfriend. He made weird indirect comments about my boyfriend and it made me very very uncomfortable and I couldn't stand it anymore. I didn't wanna ruin things for my mother so I stopped speaking to him. Blocked him and cut him off. My mother started forcing me to talk to him after a while because he used to ask her why I wasn't talking and apparently she couldn't see anything in front of his will. I told her I'm not comfortable and begged her to stop forcing me. My mom held this as a grudge against me I think and ever since then she has been so distant. I mean, I feel like I lost her. She is so invested in him and his family and cares so less for us, whom she sacrificed so much for back in the time. She went to attend a friend's anniversary on the same day as my sister's birthday, and then forced her to accept a very expensive ipad that man giften her, which when my sister refused because it is ridiculous to accept such expensive gifts from people, my mother didn't talk to her. On her birthday. On my brother's birthday which was two weeks after this, she caused a scene because my unavailable dad decided to show up and to avoid drama we decided to have one meal out with our dad and second with our mom. She threw a tantrum and after we returned from our meal with dad, she only took my brother out and not us because we suggested the plan (which she agreed to before lmao).
The point of mentioning the whole birthday fiasco is that, about a month and a half back, it was that man's daughter's birthday for which my mother flew in one day in advance to surprise her. I mean? I just don't know what to say. The covid situation was terrible back then and she still traveled just for his daughter, leaving her own two kids back at home(I am stuck in another city) alone with their 75-yo grandmother. When the time to return came, she suddenly started caring about covid and how traveling is unsafe and has been staying with him and his family since then. I wanted to go back home, she bought me the ticket, and then two days later she called me and made 5 other people from my family to call me and ask me not to go because of covid. I would have agreed if she hadn't gotten me the ticket 2 days ago. But guess what? That man told her to stop me, because (I know it's unsafe to travel during covid and I do not encourage that at all) if I went home, everyone will start questioning why she can't? When I questioned her, she made me talk to him and my blood boiled at the sound of his voice. I hung up and my mother called me back to scream at me and we got into a fight and I told her directly that he made sexual advances at me and she pretended to care for a day but she's still there, still very happy with him and his kids and I don't think she's gonna give him up even though he tried to harass her own daughter. I don't understand. This is not the woman I called my mother. I mean, I don't recognize her anymore. I was so close to my mother and now she's just some woman who doesn't even ask if I ate or not? It is all my fault. 

Harassment

Ek hi dost tha usko bhi ab gf mil gyi 🥲

Friends

Confused and disoriented about everything in life right now like I was so confident about my career and my life choices when I was a child I knew that I wanted to become a doctor the moment I knew in my life that my parents were doctors to. But now I am confused and disoriented like each and every adult I am 18 now and I cannot even tell you how rough my teenager years were. I went through depression and anxiety and my parents took me to a psychiatrist when I was 15. I was extremely pressure by my school and the exams were very stressful for me. Additionally I was also bullied by my classmates in junior high which led to a lot of anxiousness and depression and then I just stayed at home. And now I am confused and disoriented since I took commerce as my field and I am not even interested in numbers. I was not being able to perform or even stand in the science class so I had to leave. Now I have to handle whatever I have got. What would you do if you were in my place and just as confused and disoriented as I am. How will you get to know what the right path in life is because I am absolutely clueless. Like my parents are luckily supportive of me because they know how stressful teenage years and school can be. But at times even they get pissed off with how lightly I am taking my future to be. Can you all help me get clarity and go through this please.

Stress

I have schizophrenia and i don't know how to make friends and it's really difficult, wish I had a normal life. Feeling very down and sad, no one to talk to. I am not normal and no one will und me

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