well, it’s my first time here. and I actually was searching through the web on how can I talk to someone about what’s going on with me because yes I have people surrounding me but they’re really not there… I’m currently having trouble with my mom because of how feminist she is and other problems and I just want to move out so bad. My dad died 5 years ago and so who I call my mom is actually my grandmother because my biological mom left me and my siblings when we were small. So home is literally hell hearing over and over again the pain they go through because of my dad’s death and I have to try to ignore it because I can’t show anybody how broken I am. I’m just tired of my toxic household and the pain they have been putting me in physically and mentally throughout the years. I’m just tired. They’re always telling me that I don’t work for anything they always remind me how ugly I am, and their only response to problems is violence and anger. I work and have school and do not understand how stress I am. I just want to leave. They don’t know a lot about me on how I almost got raped when I was 5, or how I had suicidal thoughts when I was 11 -13, they never really said “I love you” or hugged me for love if it wasn’t a congratulations hug. All the achievements I’ve made were to make them proud but that’s not enough for them, they just want more and more from me. I’m just done with everything.