Well, I feel weird. I have been feeling really emotional lately and just want things to stop from happening. I just feel exhausted from overthinking and thinking about that person. And listening to music always calmed me down but now it just makes things worse and I don’t know what to do…😐
Wanna talk ? maybe I can understand what you are talking about
I feel anxious, I feel afraid of loosing him even tho I can’t call him “mine”. I feel tired and just idk …”scared”? I’m afraid of loosing the only goods I have left in my life. I’ve always been that shy quite person that always seem bright in others eyes. And now I’m afraid to show them how I really feel…how hard things have gotten. Because I want them to still think of me as their happy friend that is always trying to help them. But I’m soooo tired and just done with EVERYONE and EVERYTHING! 😔
Have you ever felt like you don’t deserve what you already have and you don’t deserve what you want…?
I feel uncertain of life. Everything good seems temporary in my life. I also love someone who isn’t mine. It’s just a strange feeling that I have got that she is the one who will be ever able to understand me. I am also a very introvert kind of guy. May be we both are that is why we are talking here to strangers instead of the people we know. I just find peace when I am with her. Just her presence gives me a strange peace. I just wanted to know her a lot more. I dont talk to a lot of people but to her I feel like I can talk about everything. We used to spend a lot of time together. It’s hard for me to believe that everything was that much precious only to me. But it’s just a strange feeling that keeps telling me that it was special for both of us. It had to be. I dont have anyone one really to whom I can talk or who genuinely understands me. I have friends and they are all precious to me. They are the only family I have got. But still it feels too much to explain everything to them. And I dont think they are in a position to understand what I feel. So I need someones else’s views. Maybe my judgements are being clouded by my feelings. But it felt so right and it still feels and I fear nothing more than losing her though she seems to be lost now. It’s just a the feeling that tells me to keep going and everything will fall right in place.