Well i don't know just having one of those moments I'm disconnected from the world and not really knowing what to do next i mean i should be sleep but i can't even though i have school tomorrow and will most likely fall asleep in class oh and lets not forget i have to go to school and get bullied for being skinny but they don't even know how hard i try to gain weight idk what's wrong with me and then they also talk about my hair being "nappy" which its really just really thick, how i walk,talk and they throw food at people and laugh about itoverall just mess with anyone in general when we do nothing..  im just ranting at this point but i feel so much better now since i get to type it out and nobody does anything about this

People r always gonna say 1 thing or the other..u focus on ur healing rather than petty people....try to get stable enough to move out to new places for new openings in life dear.

Life

Not every relationship is the same. So I am a person who is not comfortable or who is simply not interested in being any sorts of physical with my boyfriend. I am still young and my life has a spiritual background so I do not feel like getting involved in physical stuff of any kinds. My Bf doesn't really force me into doing anything but sometimes I feel he does want to get involved but he has to compromise because I'm not ready. I keep feeling guilty. Am I wrong? 

Relationships

I hate how i look

Body Dysmorphia

From 3 years i was thinking that I'm unlucky , just now my mother confirms it from her taunts....
  In those years she told me don't think like that, be patient.....
   But my mum doesn't always say truth she has some alternative thoughts in her mind but she portrays only those which will feel okay by me.... If you knew before that I will be like this then why didn't you told me and now you're saying...
Then compares me from my masi ka ladka... If you are thinking ohh he is successful no he's not she only compares because make me realise that Im similar to him 
And she expects that I will not be angry , though I don't shout I just keep my mouth shut...

Anger Issues

https://youtu.be/rkWbKSn71vo
🙃
Heyiii everyone..
just go through this video once.
It might give a new perspective.

Mental Wellbeing

Trying so hard to keep staying strong in my boundaries even when I’m challenged again and again. I know it will get easier but today I am so exhausted. 

Exhausted

Kabhi mukammal jahaan na milan
Tere baaton ka phal safa na mila 
Tu to be rukhi ke Aalam mai chor hai 
Kabhi Hume apna mauka na mila 
Oh husaan-e- zalim dua hai tere leye tu jahan hai tujhe Tera jaanashe mele tere baddua bhi hume dua se laage 
Tu to mukra hai apne he iradon se tere iraade falsapha nikle 

Love

Venting time :-

Hello again (jee dropper), study wise getting better alot , but still now confused for confessing the girl becuz she's from.sainik school so u can think that things can be different , thought that if 19th india wins will confess otherwise let's see cuz like it's been 3 months the crush feeling is not going maybe she's the one or again i am doing chutipanti who knows, nda prep is also going good academic wise good but other aspects not good , had a good physique once now don't wanna go gym z had an argument with mother too hyper , hammered myself with an Eiffel tower artistic now , I don't like she arguing with me told.her to ignore me if I get angry but now she won't talk I don't care , it's afucked my parents should take a divorce nd I wana go live in a pg for god's sake + masterbating is in control but i can't stop it like in 3 4 days once it's happening but i want to be free of it I can't , got alot of frends but don't know with whom should I share so here I am .
If you came till here thank you 🙏🏼

Adulting

How do you be yourself and start a conversation with someone when the only thing I can ever think of is me being worthless and not so smart to have people in my life?

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