Wanna ignore  this thought? Nm just wanted to say " YOU ARE GONNA MAKE IT, AND YOU ARE STRONG 😌♥️"

3am Thoughts

Any one looking for someone to talk

Depression

I’m so lonely I decided that I wanted attention so I spilled my heart out on my story and my “friends” replied nothing about wanting to hang out they said “oh I didn’t know” and reasons why they don’t hang out with me anymore. I don’t understand how to make friends I haven’t had friends in a while, I haven’t been social to anyone. It’s been so long that I’ve forgotten how to talk to people afraid I might offend them or they wouldn’t get my sense of humor. All I do is lay in this bed all day, play games, and eat eat eat. I like be alone sometimes but not all the time it’s scary being home alone. I feel as if no one understands how I feel not even my mother understands that I’m super anxious about certain things. I’m beginning to feel like my only chance at making new friends is a mental hospital not only would it be good for improving my mental health but also meeting new people who will understand what I’m going through. I don’t want to kept against my will I have self harmed by scratching myself repeatedly I dont want to get in trouble I’m not suicidal I have had suicidal thoughts but I would never go through with them I’m scared of dying I’m waiting for a therapist to call back it’s been a few weeks since my mom called I want to talk to someone but I’m also anxious about going I don’t know..

Lonely

I'm so mentally exhausted. God! I had no idea that everything could be so taxing! I'm in my year 12 and I don't think I can do this anymore. It has become so hard to balance my circumstances, my thoughts and my work. Just because we are home, doesn't mean that teachers should pile up work on us. After all, we only have 24 hours in a day. I am unable to revise my material, participate in extracurricular, have a little peace of mind, because right after school I have long long exhaustive hours of extra classes Our teachers encourage us to participate in extracurricular, and pay attention in class, and do our homework and be an allrounder. I feel like giving up, right when it matters the most. I'm tired. I start every week with positive affirmations and by the time I reach Tuesday, I am stuck, in a loop, irritated that NOTHING WORKS IN MY FAVOUR! Ugh!

Frustration

So basically it's about my ex, who was a terrible person, a toxic human. It's been three years of our breakup but still I'm not able to get out of his memories. Because of him I was in depression for two months. What he did to me I swear no one can imagine it. I too was shocked about it. I mean he loved me so much according to me but according to me it was only lust.

You don’t need to apologize for having ruthless standards for yourself and for the people you choose to keep around.

Adulting

What is this feeling when i still wanna love you, even though you lie straight to my face ?
Why do i wanna accept all your lies as truth and not believe her when she says he is her boyfriend as well for a year?
How to get rid of this denial phase cause its been a year and i still can't get over it?
Nor do i wanna get over it...I wanna believe he will be mine, he will understand someday. 
God give me strength to push him away cause my intuition tells me that he will be my biggest mistake in this life....I don't want to lose him.
Nor i want to get closer cause that will only burn me....I hate him for making me feel like this. Is he even responsible for all these feelings?
I wouldn't have loved him if he never came to me first....should i still fight to make you mine??
Even tho you chose another girl over me and that girl left you now. You went after another, but she was just gonna waste your time cause she was with 3 more guys.
Why don't you realise that its me?
The one that you really want?
The one that has always loved you, but you still end up hurting every time?
The one that cheers you up when you cry?
The one that can't say no to you even tho you did her so wrong?
When will you realise?
Why don't you change for the better?
Why can't you just settle for one???
The one you run back to when everything else goes wrong?
The one that never thought of anyone else other than you as her future?

I don't want to love you. Its something that i can't control anymore. But believe me, We will never be the same again. Nor i want to be with a cheater and a fuckboy like you

Love

Purane log ni rahe is app pr 😖

If you're feeling depressed or sad now.. Just remember everything in life comes as package.. Good and Bad.. Life and Death.. Happiness and Sadness.. Hope and Despair.. If you're sad now just wait it out for the next happy moment... If you're happy now cherish the moment to remember when you're sad.. 

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