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What if you like someone and just can’t have them 

Anxiety

Y’all, now&me pushing so hard for us to use this app 😭😭 what about those of us whose parents have near total control over our devices and can’t download the app, but want that help? I swear, one day imma go to nowandme.com wanting to vent and I’ll get hit with a “sorry bestie but you gotta download the app!”

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I don't have faith in humanity anymore. Most people are not genuinely kind. And when they are, they want something in return.
I work as a temporary teacher in a school. In my life, I have been through a lot of things so I'm far from being the gentle naive girl. I met this other teacher who is way older. I was being friendly just like with anyone else. Little by little he started complimenting me. 
 Turns out he is some kind of pathologic player, he doesn't even look good. I later realized that he always seeks validation from women. I would almost always see him around women. He lives with this partner and children. How can people be like that?
Do they not care about other people's feeling? 
My friend who is the other temporary teacher told me that at the beginning of the year he was being too nice with her, offering free car rides or advices. However he would always keep his distances at some point. 
What is even more strange is that he introduced her to his family.  His creates this odd relationship where he flirts but not too much. 
He was definitely flirting with me and asked me to go to an event where his daughter would attend too. Why are people so weird?  I am now taking my distances but this is hard when you work next to someone. This is so disgusting.
Thanks for reading or not, I just had to speak my mind. 

It's been 6 months and my notifications are still blank. The world doesn't care.

Breakup

I think my family completely forgot me

3am Thoughts

Numbness, that's all I feel at this moment...  

Exhausted

I met this guy who is 15 years older to me.  ( me being 20 )  he is a navy officer whose travelled all over the country and overseas ass well.  I met him in a conference. His personality caught my eye. We conversed  a litte and exchanged our numbers.  
Now we’ve been texting ( A little cheesy) 
But I don’t know if I’m doing right 
I mean I feel I am naive and maybe … 
I don’t know.  

ps. He is new to the city.  As he’s  been posted few weeks back.  

Why I feel lonely and sad is a question I want to get answers to but I am hesitating to an extent where I am not even making efforts to find out. The real problem lies in how we charecterise our issues and how much of a problem they really our. The ideals of our expectations are not always in sync with reality. I mean I think I need answers to why I feel lonely and sad but in reality, the real question in front of me is why being lonely and sad is a problem for me in particular? I guess the answer to that lies in my childhood trauma. Unresolved father issues, the blank feeling of underachievment in life, negative reinforcements as a coping mechanism and what not have driven me crazy!! All of this has led me to believe that I deserve to be lonely and sad, but that is not the case. I clearly have abandonment issues, no cap :P So why I feel lonely and sad is more of a introspective question for me, for me to figure out the real reason behind my other interlinked issues. Hence, what I could figure out so far is that all my issues are somehow linked together and they charecterise this 'why I feel lonely and sad' narrative in my mind, which may or may not be related to my self esteem issues. Does that make sense? Is it just another random chain of thought which I have formed in my mind to avoid self loathing and replacing it with self pitty instead? Well, to be honest, I really have no clue. 

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