Uuuugh I’m sick of being miserable. I just want to end this. It’s exhausting in my environment but I have to fight!

Wanna share what's the thing bothering u?

Depression

I'm confused or i'm overthinking...idk what's that but it's just stuck in my head so, any help would be appreciated i really need some advice. It's about a boy we have been talking since months.....from good morning at 9'0clock  to good night at 12. Because of this covid we are not able to meet but we video call at least twice a day. He loves me and by that i mean he takes care of me, he is putting on so much efforts.....he dreams of forever with me......ik a lot of ppl promise forever but this guy means it and that i can see.......i also have feelings for him but we are not in a relationship rn so, here is the issue. Today i saw that he is following some porn stars and some adult pages this made me think that maybe he is a horny guy or he wants relationship for some favours......i'm confused. but then i remember one incident.......one day he asked me "are you virgin" i replied to that but after my reply he felt that he had made uncomfortable by asking so he said sorry, he apologised.......he said he just asked and there was no other intention behind this. Please help.

Overthinking

just had a funny thought i felt like sharingwhen i saw the Now&Me app advertisement, "share you problems with people like you" i get it, but shouldnt i find someone with some answers lol, not just the same problem?  

this isnt a real question. i wish i had something better to do as well..

3am Thoughts

only he knows in his silence, in the dark of night when he's left to his own thoughts, if what he did or didn't do was the right choice. . only he knows

Good

Hope

For the ones dealing with heartbreak right now :

You will eventually find a shoulder to fall back on, a pair of eyes to search for in a crowd, and a name that sounds the same when you come across the word destiny again. Sometimes when a story ends, it feels like you are not getting the new one ever again. You will.

It won't be what you imagine it to be, but this love will stay.

🙂🌻

Loss

🤍
Tell me something good that happened to you today¿?☺️
(No matter how small it seems) 

If the whole world is watching, i still dance with you. 

I am 19 and my family wont let go of me.

I struggle so much with depression and .. ideation. Especially during the pandemic since just when i was starting to be okay with myself, everything changed. There was so much change. Therapy is too expensive for me so i cant do it consistently. Recently ive tried to be brave and go back to school after a 2 year break. Ive been trying to go back to art too. Ive been focusing on taking care of myself but recently ive been realizing all this is futile if i have no hold of my own life. I knew something is seriously wrong with me and how i view myself bc when i finally made some art after such a long time, i liked it a lot, then when i tried to make another thing literally right after, i couldnt bring myself to finish it. Its literally a sketch right next to a finished pieced. My hand was shaking and there was a voice at the back of my head telling me i am not an artist, i cant draw, im not a real creator, even if i made a really good piece literally just minutes ago. It was right in front of me. Ive been creating even during my whole hiatus yet i still view myself like this. I knew i needed change. Change of pace, change of environment. But i cant have that without my family's approval, without independence. 

Ive been trying to gradually ease their minds into the idea of letting me commute, at least teaching me how to so that i hhav more options than theyre giving me. But they cant let me go, especially my dad. I think hes struggling with this a lot. But its killing me so much, i cant do anything. I am so stuck. They arent prioritizing this because they dont take it seriously enough. I feel llik i am only living for them at this point. Ive tried everything i could do for myself within the house, but i need change and ive needed this for a while now. What should i do? 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts